Survived

Chapter 1

I looked up at the building, my body filling with nerves. I smile down at the box in my hand and I am happy think about the future that awaits. Getting out of the cars I took out the flowers with me. Taking a deep breath I at least released some nerves, but absolutely not all.

I was so nervous. My hands were sweaty and clammy that even the flowers I had in my hand were shaking. A huge smile was plastered on my face and as the students walked by the looked at me weirdly. And I don't blame them considering that fact that I don't smile much.

But can you blame me I was going to see my girl and that alone always made me happy. Walking further into the building I made my way to her class. I chuckled as I remember the first time I walked her to class here.

-Flashback-

"So tell me again why you wanted to take this class?" I asked as I started at the door a little sketchy. This class didn't seem like something she would do. Always said that these people were total snobs and they thought they were better than everyone, only because they're taking this class

"I don't know," she shrugged, "I went to one  of their shows and it seemed pretty interesting. I thought I'd give it a try " I looked at her weirdly. "What a person can change their mind can't they."

I just shook my head and smiled. "Whatever suits you babe." I kissed her goodbye an watched her go inside. The only thing looking back at me was the door and the words Fashion Design.

-Close Flashback-  

I lifted my hand to the door but brought it back down. I was too nervous and I couldn't handle it. Taking a deep breath if finally opened the door. "Hey Jasmine are you re-" What I saw interrupted what I was going to say. The flowers fell from my hands and that stopped whatever was going to happen.

She pulled away from the person who I have never met in my life. Tear were already forming but I wasn't going to show that to her not after I had just seen her smacking lips with this person. She took a step forward and I took a step back. "Wait, don't go I can explain.'

I couldn't look at her not after what I had seen. I couldn't look at her the same. "No," I whispered. After that I walked out the room.

I couldn't believe that she would do that to me. After everything I have done for her and this is how she treats me. I let her inside my mind, gave her my soul, and opened my heart to her. The image kept going on replay and I relive the moment that happened a few moments ago. Tears just run down my cheeks and I let it do so freely.

I walked hurriedly as I can down the corridor, hoping that I can leave this building before she can catch up. "Wait, please stop I can explain!" That alone made me run out. I couldn't look at her not after what I had seen.

Just as I left the building she grabbed my hand and spun me around, "Please stop running away from me." That's when I saw the tears in her eyes, but then I thought why is she crying. She has no reason to cry, she shouldn't be the one to cry. She's the one who hurt me.

I looked her straight in her eyes , "You have no reason to cry, you did this and there's nothing you can do about it." I yanked my hand from her grasp and walked away. "You fucking hurt me Jasmine." 

So many thoughts running through my mind, but I can never seem to sort them out, well at least at this moment I can't. Was I not giving her enough attention? Did I not give her enough love? Was I at least something to her or no? What did I do wrong to deserve this heartbreak?

As I'm in front of the my car I look at my reflection. You look fucking worthless no wonder she fucking wanted to leave you. Shaking my head I yanked the car door opened and climbing before slamming it shut. I couldn't believe I let her fucking play me like that. After everything I had done for her, after all the time I had sacrificed, after I had dedicated all my love her to.