I looked outside from the window. So many stars in the sky and I don't know why they always have to fall on me. The night sky was beautiful, everything around me was so peaceful and quiet. Man, I wish I could have enjoyed it. Maybe I'm blind to all of the signs that the world never wanted me. I gently brushed my finger against the gun in my hand. I wasn't blind. I saw it all, I knew that the world never wanted me. It just wanted someone to play around with.
I went outside today hoping the sun would burn my face. I'm sorry about everything, Jane. I'll be there soon, I promise. I'll make it up to you.
My hands were shaking as I turned off the safety switch from my gun.
I went outside today hoping I'd feel something.
I didn't. I didn't feel any better. I was too numb. But soon everything will be better. I won't feel anything. I'll tell Jane I'm sorry.
I interrupted the silence of the night around me with a gunshot.
Blood all over the front seats.
Silence.
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Guilt Tripping {songfic}
Fanfic[TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal thoughts/intentions + Breaking Bad S2 spoilers] Jesse Pinkman, alone in his car with his depressing late night thoughts on a guilt trip. song: frnkiero andthe cellabration - Guilt Tripping
