Journals Are Crazy Man

A New Chapter

The reason I named this chapter what I did is because when I first started this I wrote it because I was scared of sharing my paranoid thoughts with this girl because I was scared that sharing them would fuck things up, she ended up finding them anyways and they ended up being a big part of the reason things would be over forever, then I used started using this to help me get over her by writing how I felt, and it did help a lot but the problem was that they hurt the girl I was writing about so I deleted them to stop them from hurting her any further. I was first planning on deleting this app but then I decided that I can still use this to help me but now I want to use it so I can look back on my life when I'm older, so now I'll be writing this whenever I feel like it and I'll probably tell stories from my life aswell. Today I got closure and texted her for the last time today and instead of me angry texting her I thought about it and just told her how I felt and now I won't text her again for a really long time if ever. I will also be updating a chapter through out the week. Oh fuck I almost just got killed by a stink bug, I was just sitting there when out of no where it smelled strange in my room and then I was like oh shit I bet you it's a stink bug and when I shot up there was a stink bug right fucking next to my head, so I screamed oh shit, and I ran downstairs and grabbed the vacuum and vacuumed that son of a bitch, and then I vacuumed a couple of other things too because I was really fucking scared that thing was going to crawl out while I was putting the vacuum away. My dad started working later so now I'm not gettingany nutrious food through out the day because we don't have anything to eat at our house and no one is making dinner so now I have to go out a get food because if I don't I feel like absolute shit, but food is expensive lol so I need start making food instead of getting panda express over and over again.