I'm Not Your Innocent Ex-Wife Anymore (#Wattys2018)

Stay with me

Travis POV

After I left Lissa all alone I went to the nearest bar

No I didn't get drunk if that's what you guys are wondering, I just had one bottle of beer because I needed to numb the pain just a little...

Just a little to stop the world from crashing down... just a little to mend my broken soul

I don't know what to do now, what should I do?

Knowing that Lissa did not cheat on me is a game changer for me

Don't get me wrong I love Clair but now my heart is divided again or I guess it's was always that way I just refused to acknowledge it before

But I know that I never going to get a second chance with Lissa and that's okay

She deserves someone better than me

As for Clair I am going to tell her the whole truth, I don't want any more secrets

I realized that secrets are my worse enemy

I just don't get how someone could hate me that much, I try recalling everything I did since I was a child but nothing stands out

Well there is something but no it couldn't be

It happen such a long time ago
and  it was an accident

So I quickly dismissed that idea

Anyways after a couple of minutes have passed I have decided that it was best for me to head home

Don't worry I call a cab because even if I wasn't drunk, I did not want to risk getting into an accident

Clair POV

I was worry about Travis, it was getting late and he still wasn't home yet

That was very unusual for him, because he always try to be here to make it in time to tuck Tyler to bed

I was actual about to  call him when he show up

As soon as he walk in, I new something was wrong

He look tired and I could tell he was hurting

So I just when up to him and hug him because I knew he would tell me once he was ready to talk

After a couple of minutes I could tell he was better so I finally asked "are you okay?"

"Yeah... no... not really there is something I need to tell you. But I need you to stay calm I don't want to upset you because that my hurt the baby"

"Ok you are scaring me, what's going on??" I asked

"I met with  Lissa just a couple of hours ago to talk" he told me

"Oh" I said kind of hurt

"What did you guys talked about?" I ask afraid of the answer

"So many things, but mostly the pass"

"What about the passed, is there something I should known"

"There is so many things I want to tell you, so many things I should have told you from the first day I met you. I guess I was kind of afraid you would leave me too, if you knew how broken I was back than. But it was your love who fixed my broken heart, you were the one that show me I could love again, you were the one that stuck by me even though I pushed you away so many times. Not once did you gave up on me and I am so thankful for that because I couldn't picture my life without you or Tyler or the little angel inside of you, you were the one that gave me a family. But it wasn't like that before I met you, you knew I was marry to Lissa but I didn't tell you how we separated or why we separated. The truth was I thought she cheated on me with another guy, I thought she was a gold digger; but I found out that was not the case. I found out someone set her up and made it look like she cheated but she never did."

I was pretty shock by all of this, I wanted to kiss him and punch him at the same time. I couldn't quite believe what I was hearing this all sounded made believe; but one look at him and I knew he wasn't lying

So I just said the first thing that came out of my head "Do you still love her?" I asked him and I knew that one word from him could crash my whole world

"I would always love her. After all she was my first life loved, but I don't know when that feeling started to changed"

"What do you mean?"

"I love you both, but those are two completely different loves. What I feel for her is affection, love, hurt but with you is different. I don't see a person who needs protection because I know you can defend yourself, what I feel for you is so much more than that. I don't honestly know how to explain it to you. What I feel for is love so much love!!! That it nearly kills me, I love you with a passion, I love you with all my heart, I love you with ever fiber in my bones, I love you because you are the air that I need to breath" he said

"Travis I feel the same way about you but I need time to process this... to clear my head. Don't worry I am not going to push you away because that would hurt me to much, but I need to sort out all of my thoughts" I told him, because that was the truth I knew it was bad for me to still love him after all the things he did and didn't say, but I just can't

There is something inside of me and I don't mean this baby that is growing inside of me. That's telling me to stay, to run into his arms and never let him go

"It's okay I get just know that I am always going to be here for you" he said

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