Dear Girls, (please read)

dear girls reading this,

before i say anything i just want you all to know that you are all beautiful and special end of story. now the thing with you girls is that being a certian body image is all that important.? its not. believe me there's more to what guys look in a girl than just a pretty face and figure, take it from me. i have some girl best friends and they are upset with there body shape, their face, their thighs....you get it. but when i look at them i think they are so beautiful and delicate. "what you see in the mirror isnt actually what people see in real life" just remember that.

eventually after youh's have got it stuck in your head that you are ugly and fucked up shit! u start getting depressed and lead to cutting urself, drinking, smoking or you do stupid things. it makes me so upset to see all you beautiful and amazing girls doing stuff like that ^. truely it breaks my heart. but i get fucking mad when i hear people calling eachother ugly and shit  because 1. they arent and 2. you have no right to say stuff that isnt true.

there's alot of reasons why you shouldnt cut or hurt urself. 1. you're too beautiful 2. you have a reason to live and be happy 3. you mean so much to a whole lot of people in your life so dont break their hearts. and 4. i dont want to see you suffering like my cousins and i unfortunately did 1 year ago... my cousins @urbabe2night (anastasia) , @xxlollieloverx (chloe) and @xcandi_jeansx (chloe-mai). now my cousins are fine with me sharing the story so hear it goes.

@xcandi_jeansx is now the only daughter of her family. but she wasnt before. she had a sister called taylor which was my younger cousin the same age as @urbabe2night  and also best friends. @urbabe2night, @xxlollieloverx, @xcandi_jeansx and taylor were all best friends as well as cousins and supported each other. we all lived near each other, went to the same school and were all happy. but it was all fucking up.

you see having a boyfriend was everything at our school, losing your virginity was some way of proving your not worthless. unfortunately taylor had friends from school that were very pressuring and my used to be best friend was her boyfriend his name was kyle. none of the other girls had a boyfriend because they didnt want one, chloe only had been through a break up after she got punched by her now ex and wasnt planning on getting into a relationship anytime soon.

chloe and chloe-mai were both 13, taylor and anastasia were both 14 and i was 15. for me i was very popular at school and so was the girls. now it was a few weeks before term 1 finished and we all found out that taylor and anastasia had been cutting themselves, and chloe was getting texts saying she was pathetic and should go die. chloe-mai and i were broken hearted about this and tryied supported them the best way we could.

at the end of the term i went on a surf trip with my step-uncle. i didnt know that there was a big school party on. the girls were invited because kyle, taylors boyfriend was holding it. the girls had aparently gone to the party and wore descent clothes there. shit went down. the girls were pushed around to drink and have sex. and for god sake they were only 13 and 14?!  after they had enough of the party (none of them were drunk) they asked kyle for a ride home (yep kyle was old enough to drive) at the time he didnt seem drunk until he started driving.

when they were in the car, taylor sat in the front seat with kyle and the others sat in the back seat. half-way home kyle apparently started fighting with taylor about how she was ugly and was a dumb slut for not sleeping with him yet, knowing taylor she yelled back at him in defense and in the end he slapped her 3 times. then the last things they heard was screams and saw a blinding light.

they had been in a severe car accidnet. when i heard they had an accident i cried for hours till we got to hospital. luckily chloe and anastasia just had a few bruises and broken leg or arm. but chloe-mai and taylor's condition were much worse. chloe-mai had a crushed rib cage, she had both legs broken and she was on oxgyen or something. and taylor's injury she was.. just horrifying her skin was purple and apparently she was the worst of conditions. apparently they got hit by a truck that was oversize and kyle hadnt seen it.

seeing my cousins hurt so badly i wanted to kill kyle. i found him in the hospital and of course i punched him to the ground and i got kicked out and kyle was arrested for drink driving. 1 week later chloe-mai had woken up and cried about how she had nightmares over and over and over again about what happened. you might be thinking what happened to taylor? unfortunately 2 hours after chloe woke up taylor died. chloe-mai screamed for hours and wouldnt sleep for more than two days she just kept crying she didnt even eat?! i just thought to myself  i didnt even say goodbye to taylor...

after that our family was pretty torn up i hadnt spoken to chloe, chloe-mai or anastasia for 3 months. a few months after kyle was put in duvinile dentention and school took a wakeup call . alot more people cared more about school than relationships and always asked if we were ok. i thought hopefully after 1 week or two my cousins and i would start talking again. it didnt happen. my parents got a call that the girls wanted to talk to me about something important. i thought that it was going to be about that we were going to speak again and move on apparently not. when i got to chloe-mais house they sat me down in the living room.

anastasia explained to me that there was going to be alot of changes. chloe-mai was moving to london to go to the royal london ballet school and stuff and that her and chloe were going to travel around the world and settle for a music and art scholars in california. it broke my heart that they were leaving. chloe-mai was in tears the whole time and chloe was trying to hug it out of her. poor chloe-mai.

few days later i was farewelling them at the international airport. i hugged them all and their first stop was london, england to let chloe-mai settle in.  (anastasia and chloes parents went with them to travel since they are marine biologists)  when saying goodbye, they said nothing special besides "bye eric miss you" and so on. but chloe-mai gave me her locket and said "keep it close to your heart and dont forget her please" i told her that i would never forget taylor and that was it they left.

~~now~~~

chloe-mai (@xcandi_jeansx) has moved back to australia and has a scholarship for music and dance at her school and is a very successful cheerstar :)

chloe (xxlollieloverx)- is now in california after being in england and france for two months at a time she got her dream scholar for music :)

anatasia (@urbabe2night) - she teaches kids to surf in fiji and denied her scholar in cali. she goes to her local school and raises awareness about school bullying

and well me i moved 2 hours away from the town everything happened at with my parents and go to a new school. i still have that locket chloe-mai gave me safe and sound and its close to my heart. girls that piont is im trying to put across please be happy u r alive "we all have a reason to live" so dont listen to the fuck-assess who told you not. remeber taylor never got to live.

-eric