Silhouette |Book 3/3| discontinued

2|Anomaly|

Kenneth ¨Kenny¨ Zell Brooks

How am I supposed to feel? How was I supposed to react? Am I supposed to show her that I miss her? Tell her how I felt like I lost my only mother figure when she left? I shook the questions out of my head as I looked at myself in the bathroom. I got a couple more hours before I clock out but I think they will understand, I never act like this. At least not anymore. With me being on my own since I was 9, I learned alot of shit in the streets. Like, selling drugs, defense, being on my own, fighting. The whole 360. But one thing I can sayI didnt do was, drugs. I mean all my life, I would watch Darren and Kendra fuck up my only brother,Brasi. I then swore to never touch a drug.

Brasi was never a nice kid, let alone a nice nigga. I tried to contact him and he was tryna rat me out to my parents. I havent seen him in 2 years. I honestly dont want to. Why should I allow someone to come in my life just to ruin it? Im old enough to remove bullshit and thats exactly what im doing. Maybe when im legal ill give Vada another chance but until then, Im not risking returning to that house or a foster home. I just wont do it.

Meanwhile, In all reality...I miss Vada. I miss knowing how she would always be there for me and treat me like a real human. I never got that. I was treated like I had commands. Darren hated when I helped Vada out. He would make me do bad things to her if he caught me helping her. Bad things such as, ruining her belongings or say things to hurt her feelings. With me being only 9, thats not what I put my mind to honestly. I wanted to just love Vada. She will forever be a mother/sister in my eyes cause she was there to teach me and reason with me. Brasi didnt think like me though, he praised Darren and his wishes and now that nigga is on the verge of 18 and treats women like garbage. Streets talk and him and my father are known pimps of the city of Chicago. I pray to god they never get a hold of any woman I come to love or Vada.

I walked out of the bathroom, shaking my head as I returned to the bar and put my hat and apron on. My co-worker, Nina approached me. ¨Kenny, that girl left her number. Here.¨ She said,handing me a napkin with Vada number and the words, ¨You gotta let me explain...I been looking for you for years....we need to talk. Call me. I love you.¨ I simply folded the letter and put it in my pocket. ¨Thanks Nina." I smiled and she smiled back, nodding and taking the next order.

Now I have to decide, do I wanna let Vada back in my life or do I wanna continue hiding in the shadows of Chicago..

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Vada Jewel Jones

I ended up leaving Kenny a note as me and KaiJai continued out ways through the mall.

¨So, how you feeling?"He asked as he had his arm around my shoulder.

¨Im good, I just need to explain to him.¨ I sighed as I took a sip of my smoothie.

¨I feel you ma, he gone come around fasho.¨ Kai assured me as we walked out of the mall. It was to much going on and Kai got spotted in a store by a fan. I wasnt really in the mood to be there anymore. Only thing we got was his shoes and my smoothie & cookies. You can tell we have no life if we do some shit like this. But im happy we decided to go to the mall today because now I know Kenny is alive and I got the chance to see his face. If I can just explain to him, everything will run smoothly.

We pulled out of the mall. heading to Kilo basketball game. I was a little excited. If only I took Kenny with me when I left Darren, he could be playing basketball. But nah, he had to drop out of school and follow my dumb ass.

Kai put his hand on my thigh to make sure I was okay, I gave him a weak smile as we came to a red light.

¨I love you.¨ He said.

¨I love you too.¨ I kissed his cheek.

¨You still in the mood for Kilo decision party?¨ He asked. Kilo last game of the season today and he tells us which NBA team he going to, to play basketball. This is so important to all of us because I know this one of Kai big dreams also. He and his brother always wanted to prove to their mother and sister that one of them was gone make it.

¨Yes, I am. Ill most definitely turn up for my baby boy.¨ I smiled and assured him.

Kai and I have been through so much in a short amount of time. I dont know how I could ever repay him for being my solid side.

After another 5 minutes, we arrived to the away game where Kilo was playing. With Kai being a hood celebrity, everybody was all in our faces and shit. I mean, after the miscarriage, Kai havent really been in the booth and Spook havent released anything besides the album that dropped when we were in Mexico. But it looks to me that he has supporting fans. I support his music also, I been trying to encourage him to go in the studio and speak on how he feels about the lost of our child. I gave him the o.k to do that but he seems to always turn it down because he is emotional.

It hurts me that we couldnt give a successful pregnancy, but ill be sure to try again.

¨Thank yall for showin me love, but tonight about my lil bro, Kilo. Make sure yall watch #3.¨ Kai said to the crowed as they cheered and took pictures. The school security guided us through the halls and into the gym where we sat front row. It was a loud ass gym room and they was playing Trophies by Young Money. Everybody was turnt up. I wish I had this much fun when I was in highschool.

The boys came out and the game begun.

Kai was so happy and we were cheering Kilo on to the max because its his last game of the season. Tonights party is gonna be epic. I invited everybody.

When I say everybody, I mean..

Everybody...

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