Y / N ' S P O V
"what's taking him so long?" i asked
"they're probably making dinner" Xander said and i nodded and crossed my legs and took out my phone and started scrolling through Twitter
"so you're in the same school with him i suppose?" Marcus said making me look away from my screen to his gaze
"yeah" was all i said
"how long have you two been friends?" he asked again
gosh what's with all these questions
"um you know-"
"hey babe , we should probably get going"
phew thank god all these questions are making me feel uncomfortable
"um yeah , but don't call me babe" i muttered on purpose not letting his friends hear me
"we'll see about that" he smirked and i just rolled my eyes
"have fun McCann" i heard Josh yell
"shut up" Jason laughed
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we arrived back home and he finally killed the engine after an hour of driving
"so how do you like the guys"
"they're cool , josh was acting a bit weird tho"
"how weird" he furrowed his eyebrows together
"i don't know he asked how you brought me there without telling me ?" i shrugged
"yeah , that's what i've been wanting to talk to you about" he said feeling a bit nervous , i can tell because he was scratching the back of his neck , he always does this when he's nervous , it's cute
"what is it?" i asked feeling confused yet scared
"let's go inside and we'll talk" i nodded and got out of the car following him to his house
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"y/n ! i didn't know you were coming over" Matt said and gave me a hug and i smiled
"neither did i " i giggled , Jason was standing there glaring at Matt for some reason
"not the time bro" he spat
Matt just looked at him and then back at me in confusion and i just shrugged and followed Jason to his room leaving Matt in the hallway
"what's wrong with you?" i asked
"its nothing" he reassured and took my hand
"you're bipolar , you know that?" i laughed and sat on his bed and crossed my legs
"so , what is it?"
"promise you won't freak out?"
"no promises?" i held my hands up in defense
he sighed and opened his mouth to speak again until the door flew open and his mom was standing
"oh hi y/n i didn't know you were here" she smiled and i got up and hugged her
"mom , could you please give us a minute" he ran his hand through his hair sighing
"i can't greet my own son when i come home ?" she crossed her arms which made him roll his eyes
"yes you can mom but we're in the middle of something here"
"alright then , stay for dinner y/n , i'm making lasagna your favorite"she winks and shuts the door behind her
"your mom is literally goals" i giggle
"of course she is" he laughs
"anyway , you were saying?" i asked
" i don't know where to start , remember when you were old that i went to a boarding school? well i didn't , Zac the guy you met today , saw me on the streets one day fighting with someone , i broke his nose and his left rib , he came up to me and told me that he wanted to "talk business with me" i didn't know what he meant but i went with him anyway , he took me to the warehouse and introduced me to the guys , he's a gang leader , he told me i'd be perfect for this job and he wanted me to work with them , he explained that this job would include killing , drugs , money , everything , and that i shouldn't pass on his "generous offer" , it took me weeks to think about it and then i accepted his offer , so last summer i was away doing "business" with them , before you freak out , i know this is too much to take in but-"
"ARE FUCKING CRAZY MCCANN? I-"
"shut the fuck up , let me finish" he placed his hand on my mouth but i was ready to explode , he's nuts , no wonder he's the way he is
"yes , i know what you're going to say , that i'm psychotic and that you can't be near me , i have no excuse for what i have gotten myself into , but i was lonely , my dad passed away last year , we were closer than you think , losing him was so fucking hard , what was even harder , is how my mom got over him so quick that she found a new husband and that i was forced to live with him and his son , i didn't know what to do , i had no one to rely on , my mom was too busy picking out her wedding dress , they're like my family , since the day i met them and they promised to have my back , and they did , whenever i was down , i had them to comfort me , Zac was filling my dad's space that time , still he does , he's always protective and stern , he always insisted that i should go to school and study and-" he stopped for a second because he began crying , i started crying too
"its just , hard y-you know-"
"hey , its okay , i'm here for you , you know that?" i wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly refusing to let go , he squeezed my waist and sniffled , i pulled away and cupped his cheeks
"its going to be okay , i got you"
"you know that i love you so much right?" he said and i froze , damn it y/n just admit it already , what are you waiting for ?
"Jason.. i-"
"its okay , you don't have to" he smiled and i shook my head , here goes nothing
"Jason , i love you too , i always have , since you apologized for the first time , i was denying it because it wasn't right , because you bullied me , i tried hating you that time like i used to in middle school but i couldn't , seeing you again and you apologizing felt different , it felt like you really meant it , which by now i know you did mean it , i was battling with my own feelings , its crazy that after all these years i'm here pouring my heart out like this" i smiled and leaned it and within seconds , he crashed his lips into mine , making my back touch the sheets , he was on top of me , holding my chin , kissing me passionately and my fingers were exploring his golden locks
"god you're so beautiful" he pulled away panting , staring deeply into my brown eyes , i was weak under his touch , its like i was hypnotized every time our eyes meet , i blush looking away hoping he won't notice but unfortunately he did , he laughed and started kissing my neck , and man was i in love with the connection my neck had with his lips (if that's even a thing lol)
"Jason.." i moaned , shutting my eyes
"you like that baby?" he mumbled against my neck and i just nodded
"answer me princess" he squeezed my left breast making me gasp at his sudden action
"yes , Jason i do" i whispered
"call me daddy"
"yes daddy"
