Heart Failure
Have you felt that emotion when your heart beats fast?
It beats fast to the point that it beats abnormally.
Medically speaking, it’s called “arrhythmia”, a HEART FAILURE.
For the past 22years of my life I’ve been wondering why I have yet to experience the famous “heart failure”.
I’ve seen some of my friends went in and out of relationships. Some got tied up and settled down.
A lot of them just hooked up.
But me?
I did neither.
I’ve experienced neither.
Though I’ve had had boyfriends before but is it considered as a relationship if it didn’t even last more than 60days?
We didn’t even use the eminent phrase “it’s not you, it’s me.”
Though, I absolutely admit that it’s me who wanted to get out of the bond.
For, I don’t trust the guy. And I don’t entrust myself to the guy.
I don’t know where it all started.
I was a normal teenager. I believe.
But something, somewhere along the way changed everything.
Was I been too serious to the fact that no one wants to take me seriously?
Or was I just too numb to feel?
For the last years in my life I’ve been looking for someone to be with me.
To be the shoulder I can cry on.
To be the ear I can rant on.
To be the hand I can hold when I’m nervous.
To be the pillow I can hug when I’m upset.
To be the blanket that will comfort me and make me feel warm.
To be the sunshine after the rain.
Someone, who, I am not,
Someone, who is not perfect, but will feel perfect with me.
But it looks like the son of Venus has a broken bow. His arrow keeps on missing me.
C’mon Cupid!
Be good to me.
I also, want to feel the emotion the normal person my age feels.
Don’t be silly boy,
Shoot me on the left side of my chest.
I want to feel the so called, “best heart failure”.
