The impossible becoming even more impossible.

When?

Normally when you hear a 14 year old say they are in love...you either thinks its just a silly crush or you dont even pay much attention to it. Anyone can fall in love at any time. It might not happen right away. It might happen as soon as you lay your eyes on them. But when you know, you know. You cant fight it either. If you truly are falling in love with someone nothing will be able to stop your feelings from eventually shining through, not even yourself. Sometimes love can do dangerous things. Especially if they dont love you back...that sounds very simple but its not. When you experience a heart break a little part of your soul gets shattered. Some people (like me) have had so many heart breaks our soul has been completly shattered for a long time, we are just looking for someone to peice us back together. Someone to gain our trust. And not hurt us like everyone else does. Sometimes you are going to feel alone when your surronded by friends. You feel alone because the one you want isn't around,  your heart has an hole that can only be filled by them, at least it seems that way. And when u fall in love... it seems like no one ever seems to catch you. But they catch everyone else...it makes you think "maybe theres something wrong with me"..... To be honest...love just sucks. It just really sucks. Then when or if you see them with another, that hurts the worst. It hits you like a hurricane. If you just hear about it is isnt that bad but if you see it...a knife goes through your chest, and bad because hes the one that threw the knife...but he didnt realize what it was going to hit. You try to be there for them, you try to support them as much as possible, waiting for them to realize who is actually there. Waiting for them to realize that you've been standing there forever waiting for him to notice you and waiting for him to realize why you've been waiting for so long. Because hes your best friend and you want to support him, yes. But theres another. And if he can't figure it out and goes to someone else...walk it off.