ELYSIAN? {MYG & KIM JISOO}

•mavi•

Warning
A hint of rape

Yoongi...I'll always love you but you already know that that's why you always keep me.

In this cell of regrets.
The cell that's makes me wonder if this is worth it? Was this world meant for me?
Maybe not

But you're not letting me go anytime soon. So I ran again and again, until my legs were burning..then I fall and cut my hands and knees but I still got up so I could get away from your madness.

You caught me in the end that's when I knew that you wouldn't let go of me

You needed my love
Body
Comfort
Happiness
And my smile
You soon ruin everything that you wanted so you just decided to take my body.

Take everything.
You ruin the insides of me.

Then that's when everyone and everything ruined me

My arms pinned down above or beside my body.
By
Guy friends
Your friends
Cousin's
Uncles
Men
Our bodies touched by the wrong people, even when the bed we used to sleep on was for safety and comfort but now its filled with fear

We are afraid.

Rape will tear you in half
That's what you thought right?
That's not the right answer though
Rape would not end you
It'll break you
Make you feel disgusted with our bodies and looks or even just people.
It'll make you guilty for letting it happen.

That's why I tell myself
Well...
Try

"You were not in control at the time"
"Atleast you tried to fight"
"Stop feeling sorry for yourself"
"Maybe you deserved it"
"Kim jisoo, you are a bad person anyway"
"Ew"

That's what is on my mind late at night without anyone by my side.
Except the person who caused this to happened.

Min yoongi.

Even if it wasnt you who did it over and over.
I still pictured you.

You "did" once.
But society did it to me many times after.
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I hate you but love you at the same time because I am pathetic.

It was like I was a broken doll waiting for a boy with glue.
Some to get attached to.
Someone that would hold me late at night.
You had different thoughts on your mind for me.

Perhaps a sex toy?

I'll not allow you to do such thing to me though.

Even you already had did what you wanted in the first place...
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Yoongi: are you sure you want to by with me?

Jisoo: of course my love! Theres no problem with me being in a relationship with you in the first place right?.

Yoongi wanted to stop her. He didnt want to hurt her, but he did wanted someone to love him.

He knew himself to be good though, he had the thought of using her for his own sins.

He tried his best to get the thought out of his mind.

Thoughts would take over one way of another.

That's exactly what happened to yoongi...

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