Him

Frustration

Embers P.O.V

I wish I could just get of this tour bus and bury myself somewhere quiet. Their voices were irritating, though one was my younger sisters (scarlet) it was becoming unbearable. The only reason is because she was constantly trying to impress Enzo. Unfortunately thought we were driving to the next city. We were going to New Jersey to play for 2 nights. At least I had something to look forward to, since Jack left I had no one to talk to about mom and dad when they left and my emotions. He understood me like no other person.

I guess I could talk to frank and becks our other guitarist and drummer, but it still wouldn't be the same.

Scarlet giggled and I sighed and went to our little make do recording studio at the back of the tour bus that we set up just in case we had any ideas for the next album whilst on tour. I sat their and stared at nothing for what felt like hours until the door opened. I didn't look, I stayed there. Whoever it was picked up their guitar an started strumming a few chords. Must be frank.

I closed my eyes. It was peaceful and beautiful. I started humming to it, some lyrics started to flow through my head and I started singing

"Where did you go?

Where did you go my mystery

You left me alone

You left me to drown in misery"

I stopped singing and frank stopped playing and it took me a moment to realise the lyrics were about Jack. I missed him. "That was beautiful" I opened my eyes. It wasn't frank, in fact it was the last person I wanted to see. "Get out" I said sternly. He sighed " look I don't wanna make trouble I just wanted to talk" I didn't want to hear what he had to say. " just get out Enzo" I was getting really frustrated now. He did something that surprised me, he smiled. Then he left.

---- New Jersey ----

My he crowd was wild and I loved it. My heart was pounding, sweat was dripping down my back. " hello New Jersey!" I shouted. The crowd became even louder. I laughed. "Ok guys this one is called make me wanna die" the bass kicked in and I started singing

"Take me I'm alive

Never was a girl with a wicked mind...."

I smiled whilst singing. The stage was the only place I felt at home.

We were on our last song and Enzo and Scarlet were making eyes at each other, I rolled my eyes and continued singing.

When the concert ended we all went backstage. We signed some autographs and took some pictures with fans. And then went back to our tour bus. Scarlet was sitting on Enzo's lap and frank and Becks were sprawled across our tiny couch sleeping silently for once.

"Scarlet can I talk to you for a Minute?" I asked. "Sure" I pulled her to our mini recording studio.

"You could try to be a little gentle ya know" she said annoyed. " look whatever's going on with Enzo, make sure it doesn't get serious ok?" She frowned. "Why? What's it to you?" She said curious. " I don't trust him. And I don't want to see you get hurt that's all" she scoffed "jealous much?" " look I know we're not close but could you just listen to me for once?! He's bad news I can feel it" "listen this has nothing to do with you so just piss off!" She shouted. She had short temper, that's why if u argued with her you always had to have a calm approach but that didn't always work. I sighed as stormed out. She slammed the door shut.

I didn't bother going out there and sorting it out, it was late, Enzo and Scarlet would probably be going to bed by now. It was about 2 in the morning, I was the night owl in the group. I'd stay up till about 4 because I would always be writing down ideas for new songs.

I could play piano, guitar, bass, and drums. The only reason I didn't play an instrument in the band was because singing was what I was best at. For a couple weeks now I been recording a song building the instruments in. First starting with the drums, then playing the bass and recording it whilst the drums played in the background, then I did the same with the guitars.

This time I was recording my voice with the song. I had the lyrics memorised.

"If I let you in

Let you deep inside

I don't know

if I can hang on

To what I used to be

I let it die

Coil around me

It's all yours"

"This Is what you came for

But you took so much more much more

Then I can give

This is what you came for

But you took so much more much more"

I continued singing. This was the most effort I put into a song. And this time it was all my work. I finished recording and yawned loudly.

I stood up and walked out of the studio. I went to my bunk and got changed, I didn't bother hiding behind a door or anything when I got changed when I went to bed because everyone was always asleep. I pulled my top off and I heard a cough behind me. It was one I those 'you do know I'm here right' coughs. " shit sorry" I said whilst grabbing my covers from my bunk and covering myself. I looked at who it was. Enzo. I frowned "what do you want?" I asked uninterested in what he had to say. " I wanted to talk about earlier"

"There's nothing to talk about" I replied bluntly. " look I know you don't like me but it doesn't mean you have to ruin things for me and Scarlet" " I thought she was just a fuck buddy. I mean it's clear you don't want anything serious out if it, seeing as you fuck other girls" I said disgusted. " well she's not quite what I was after" he said closing the gap between us. " I really don't think that's a good idea" I said. " I do" he whispered into my ear.

He was about to kiss me. I turned away. Even though he wasn't into my sister, I still couldn't do that to her. " just because you two aren't officially together, doesn't mean you can have me. I don't want you anyway. Heck I don't even like you"

" you will" he turned away and went to his bunk. I finished getting changed, this time more discreetly, and went to bed.

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