Insight

Well Hi, good night to you, or should I say morning

cause its three am and I've been up all night mourning

whats that? you didn't ask? I know I really do sound so boring

but to be fair with you its really tough when you're alone in these four walls while everyones out "scoring"

I had a nice long talk with my momma and with my dad

about me having some drinks while I also took a drag

it was scary, I felt a deep chill inside

but not the kind of chill you would feel when you got your man and Netflix by your side

how is your man by the way, forgive me I forgot to remind myself to say

did it work, the advice i gave you I mean, did you convince him to stay?

i'm so so so so truly sorry that It all didn't work out

I mean he did push you out and did so partially for the clout

he lent his ears to his friends, and went down the wrong bend, he threw a massive u-turn

he threw it away he didn't stay and just let it all burn

I mean, I can't say much as I've made mistakes too

but who is anyone to say that my future is at stake too?

you think I don't know the consequences of my own actions and deeds?

I live my life in such a way to ensure i'm not hanging by the tree

in the park near your house where I slept in when it got really dark 

I lay staring at the bark when suddenly SHARK

it swims, circling around me, it would love to take a bite

but I wanna see the light, oh how I wanna see the light

at the end of this tunnel, the shark is gonna catch me

you know lets all blame it on this fucked up society

its really their fault I have become who I really don't wanna be

i've become the wannabe who doesn't really want to be

now I'll leave you all with another thought of mine

just a bit of insight, a mere few lines

I just strive to be benign, while its difficult to shine 

I feel my spine is unaligned cause i'm confined to this...

why is it that you find, lying supine is just fine 

as long as it is tied with another body and not mine

the very body you called mine when we became intertwined 

I just feel i am inclined to help people realign

I think that is my problem, that I give all of my time 

to too many at a time, to the wrong people in my life

I see now, sometimes life can be a lie, like illusions to the eye

they have contributed to why I may have lost my mind

thank you