Self,
You're a jolly person that everyone thinks you don't have any problems. Everyone thinks you're happy. Everyone thinks you're strong but, that is not true.
Why did you kept your condition? Why? Because, you don't want to see your family, sad? Cry? Suffer? Tsk! Your too sweet! It is okay to show concern to other people but, make it sure you must show concern on yourself first!
If you just said earlier that you're encountering sickness, maybe until now you're still alive, happy! You're such a fool!
You're gone, the lovable daughter, sibling, cousin, and a friend. Your family are very lucky to have you because you are talented. You can sang beautifully and danced gracefully.
You're a blessing from above but, it is sad to think that you're gone. You don't even finish and reach all your dreams while you are still living in this world.
How about the people you left now? Your friends? You're gone, the one who makes solutions to their problems. You will not be able to throw nonsense jokes to make them smile and laugh when they are sad again.
How about your mother now? You promised to her that you will going to travel together in other countries.
How about your father now? You promised to him that you will going to support your family needs.
How about your siblings?
Especially, how about your niece? You promised to buy a presents every time you go home from school?
What can you do now? How will you going to fulfill your promises to them? You're dead.
It hurts, it hurts so much because when you're still alive you haven't even say these words to the people around you! You didn't even say thank you and say sorry to them. What will you do now?
You will going to miss everything about them. You will miss the times which you stay with them during hard times. They are just going to be with you at their dreams? What can you do now? Yeah, you're now free from sufferings and pains but, your family is not.
There's nothing you can do now. Your life is only borrowed. You are not the one who can decide when your borrowed life has to be taken. You don't even know the right time. You cannot cheat death. All you need is to accept. Accept the fact that you're gone, you are totally gone.
***
Thank you for reading!
