Is the Mortician's Daughter Unlovable?

Chapter 7 - Wonder what people will think...

Hey guys! hope you like this chapter! Enjoyyyy! i don't have much to say besides please please tell me what you think! Thanks!

video on the side is the song ' Loverboy' by You me at six

why you may ask...? Cause i love this song. ;)

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Delilah's pov.

the memories slowed until they froze at one particular moment, the second i was officially raped for the first time.

i was all i saw until i heard a voice say " Baby girl, You are safe. i'm right here and i'm never letting you go."

Ashleys face came to my mind and slowly the picture of me being raped faded as he filled my sight.

" Ash." i whisper holding him in a vice like grip.

" Hey.... it's okay i'm right here." he said holding onto me as well.

" What happened?" he asked when i calmed down and slowly loosened my hold on him but not letting go.

" I.... I don't know.... i got on the bus and he was sitting on the couch drunk.... he said yelling at me, asking where i was, who i was with. then he start calling me a slut for hanging out with you. And then he said i belonged to him.... then he tried to kiss me but i got away and ran to your bus and well.... you know the rest...." i said quietly.

he nodded " And where did you go a few seconds ago... it looked like you were trapped in a nightmare... " he whispered.

" Ash.... i was raped.... They never caught the guys who did it....." i said looking up into his eyes.

i saw anger and rage flash into his eyes but when he looked down to meet mine they were kind and loving.

" Are you okay...?" he asked barely audible.

i nod " i'm okay now... it was a while ago."

" Bullshit!" i heard a familiar voice shout.

i turned my head a bit to see Kenz sitting next to CC.

" It happened 4 fucking months ago! Thats not a while! That like a day!" Kenz shouted angrily.

i looked away from her and buried my face in Ashley's neck " i'm fine."

" My Ass!" kenz shouted.

" What the hell do you want me to do Kenz!? Live in fear everyday for the rest of my life?! Crawl into hole and never see daylight again? Become even more depressed than i already am?! Be angry at the world?! Be scared to live my life!?! Do you want me to go MIA and cry in my room for days on end?! Tel me, Kenz! Tell me what you want and i'll do it!" i screamed at her, jumping off of ashley's lap.

tears began to openly stream down my cheeks.

she stood up and walked over to me, trying to give me a hug but i held up my hands stopping her.

" No, but i dont want you to brush it off as if its not a big deal. Dee, those guys raped you for two days straight! You can't ignore the fact that it happened." she whispered fierily.

" I know it happened, god damn it! Even if i wanted to i can't ignore the fact that it happened! i've cried myself to sleep every fucking night since. i've woken up every night since from nightmares that it's happening all over again. i spend hours in the shower, trying to feel clean again but i cant! I FUCKING CAN'T Kenz! Don't you see?! i'm not the same person anymore! i'm not the person i used to be, i dont see the world the same. i'll never be able to walk down the street without looking over my shoulder ever again! Sorry if i cant be who you want me to be. i guess i'm just a big amazing ball of disappointment to everyone!" i shouted throwing my hands in the air.