Reflection
Now let us start his motivation series by reflecting. First, let us find a mirror and look at ourselves and ask the ourselves: Who do I see in the mirror? Do I like what I see? Am I contented with what I see? Let us face the facts that we are only humans who are prone to do something wrong but lets not make it a hindrance to become the person that we want to be.
Life right now is VERY HARD both physically and mentally. Even though we sat on our bed the whole day our mind is on a continuous work and on a continuous stress as we think about the things that we really need to do but we do not allow ourselves to take actions and as we continually deny ourselves to do that important task we actually numb our brain and stress our body.
Now let me share to you my reflection. As I look at myself I can only say to myself I am disappointed by you as I am not clearly satisfied with what I see because the person infront of me is the complete opposite of my ideal self. Today , I am that very lazy person, that person who is too proud of herself, who is so envious, who is so ambitious up to the point of no good. A person who has a lot of dreams but do not have a plans. Maybe, I have plan something for y future but as I reflect and see those plans I’ve realized that those plans are very unrealistic and I’ve realized I am heading to become that failure person. I want to succeed. I want to go to different places and experience different environments but how will I change myself? What are the things that I needed to change? What are the steps that I need to take in order for me to become the person that I wanted to be? There are a lot of questions going on my mind as I want to become the ideal person that I imagined but with this endless questions my mind do not want any change as it will take a lot of effort. A lot of sacrifices are needed to be done so now I want to take a deep breath and start to win my internal struggle to change. The hardest battle that I need to take is the battle against myself.
For a clearer picture, you could see me as the typical person who is very very very lazy. I am lazy to the point that I lay down on my bed the whole day. I only move whenever I need to eat or go to the bathroom. I am that person who scrolls her phone the whole day or watch a movie he whole day despite of the long lost of things that I needed to accomplish. Yes, I do have a dream and I know it will remain a dream if I will not take any action to improve myself. This lifestyle is very comfortable but until when? I know that at some point it will end and I will not know what to do anymore. I will start to cry and cram as I do the things that I should have finished a long time ago while my eyes are so heavy with tears. I will start to question myself again and again about my actions. Sometimes, well maybe most of the times, I make excuses to myself where I tell myself that I am not really the one at fault here where in fact I am the one to blame. When that time comes I will rumble to ground thinking of better ways that I should have down so now I want to stop myself to stop that situation from making a comeback to my life. Yes , it already happened in the past and if I do not take any action it will become a cycle until to the point that I either go numb or self-destruct.
Now I want to see a different girl whenever I want to look in he mirror. I want to see the person I wish to be. I will be that girl who has plans and who makes actions. I will be that girl who is determined to achieve her goals and to reach her dreams. I will be that girl who can take courage to do what her task first and to fulfill her leisure later. I will be that strong and independent girl who has courage to face what is at hand and to avoid distractions that could lead her to shed tears n her eyes. I will be that girl who has a voice to say whatever is in her head and to speak as straight-forward as possible. I will be this girl. I know it will take me a very long journey to become that girl and that journey will not be an easy one. I should start to believe in myself and pray to God to lead me to the right path in order for me to receive the gifts and blessings that I will be then rightful to receive.
This is my personal reflection and I want this to end by encouraging everyone that it will never be late to become the person you want to become just have courage and learn to believe that you can do it. You are very worthy to become your ideal self so never be afraid of the changes you want to make in order to achieve it.
|Sorry this story has a lot of wrong spellings and wrong grammars. Also, some parts of the story are exagerated to emphasize facts.
- Jani |
