ON HOLD - I'm Drowning In A Sea Of My Own Past (Johnnie Guilbert)

"Mitch Lucker"

My phone starts blaring Rotation by 7 Minutes In Heaven.

"Timmy," I smile talking into my phone.

"Dano," I smile even bigger at Timmy's nickname for me.

"How are you?" I ask.

"Why won't you turn around and see?" I slowly turn dropping my phone and attacking the surprisingly great smelling figure in front if me in a hug.

"I've missed you so much," I say backing away a little still in Timmy's grip.

"I've missed you too," he smiles, "so you've met my friends."

"Yes, they are very fantastic," I smile as he walks over to Jason and Damon.

"They better be, we have to put up with them for three months," I smile at that.

"Yeah," I say.

"So how's the satan queen?" He asks, "she can't be too bad if she let you come out here."

"Um, well, she didn't," my shoes have become very interesting all of a sudden.

"Wait? What! Did you just say she didn't let you come out here," he says walking towards me. I back up as much as I can until I hit a counter.

"Your mom is going to kill you!" He says.

"She caught me, right as I was getting the plane, her words to me were 'If you get on that plane, don't come back'," I say looking up at him.

"Shit Syd," my breathing hitches, my dad used to call me that because he always wanted to name me Sydney. "Sorry, I shouldn't have called you that," he shakes his head.

"It's fine," I shake my head. I hear guitar playing and look over to see the guys messing with my guitar.

"No!" I shout running over to them, "don't touch this guitar." I take it from them.

"Why not?" They ask.

"This is the only thing I have left of my dad and uncle," I explain putting it back in the case.

"Who was your uncle?" Cyr asks.

"Mitch Lucker," I smile at the thought of them.

"No way!" Johnnie squeals.

"Yes way," I laugh, "that's how I got so much into music, it was in my blood."

"I haven't heard you say their names in a long time," Timmy comes up and hugs me.

"My dad died a few years before Mitch, so I had Mitch up until I was 13 and that's when Mitch died," I explain, "enough of this subject." We decide to order pizza.

"Just think, this time tomorrow, we'll all be on the road," Bryan says.

"I am honestly so excited," I say taking a bite of my pizza. I pick up my phone that has been ringing nonstop for the past hour. I decide to look at it. I look at the caller ID.

"Excuse me, Bryan, where is your restroom?" I ask.

"Down the hall, second door on the left," I run down the hallway into a room, that come to find out isn't the bathroom. I burst into tears. Someone knocks lightly on the door and walks in.

"Danielle, what's wrong?" Johnnie speaks softly laying a hand on my back. I attack him in a hug, burying my face in his chest. After a few moments, Johnnie puts his arms around me.

"He's gone," I pull away from Johnnie a bit.

"Who's gone?" He asks.

"My brother, he's been in a hospital for a while, since a few months before Mitch died. He got hooked on drugs and was seriously screwed up on them and he just died," I start crying more.

"Shh, you're okay, I'm here for you," he pulls me back into the hug.

"Thank you," I look at him.

"For what?" He asks.

"Letting me screw up your shirt with my tears," I laugh.

"I'll always let you screw up my shirts with your tears," he smiles a bit. He stands up and holds out a hand. I take it and I get pulled to my feet. We walk into the living room.

"Timmy, can I talk to you?" I ask. He gets up and walks over.

"Caleb's gone," I say. Tears well up in his eyes and I hug him.

"I'm so sorry," I whisper to him. He hugs me tighter. He let's go and we walk back and sit down with the rest of the guys and girl.

"From now on," everyone turns their attention to me, "you guys are the only family I have left." I look around at the band of misfit YouTubers. Kate, Cyr, Damon, Timmy, Jason, Bryan, and Johnnie. Bryan decides to hug me. I smile and hug him back.

We decide to get some sleep.