my brothers best friend

why why?!?!?

   After what I said I instantly regretted it even though it was all true I felt kind of bad just how intimate we were it kind of hurt that II boy in my life that I was getting ready to get close to hurt me I didn't really get into detail about what happened but he was my first crush my first love my first everything it just hurt when I saw him when I saw them I built a brick wall around my heart and blocked everybody out even my family members they've gotten so worried about me this past few days my brother always comes knocking on my door asking if I'm okay and I just say go away Intuit someone in like that as fast as I did for him I didn't even know what I was doing conversion to just say so as he was about to cheat it just annoyed me so much the second guy that I really liked my life was about to cheat and even if I did get him who knows what he would have done to me I'm just going to get out of here go down and tell her when he did but first I have to get him away from here I know I will lure him down there but I don't know what to do maybe tell him I'm cooking something no my brother to cook dinner I don't know just go down the there and tell him to meet me outside on the porch and then I'll tell you the same thing to the girl to tell her something top secret AKA and she cheating on her then I can get that busted out of my life and then meet her can come besties and happily ever after but little did I know that's not what it was about to happen, " hey look I'm sorry okay it's just she's crazy she won't let me go and when I saw you crying it just really hurt and I had to comfort you and did you forget you're the one who started this the one thing I want you that I don't think this can work out if you worried about me because if you can't trust me like you should then the Snicker work even though we just met I want you for the rest of my life and I will end my relationship with her your kiss is your skin it just drives me crazy and when I first saw you crying thinking about him cheating on you or when it ask his name so I can kill that bastard but when you called me a cheating bastard it just really hurt and just you drive me crazy and it's really hard to explain words but just your touch hypnotizes me and I feel like I'm already in love with you you know those rumors about love at first sight they're not rumors because it's true at least for me........"