Fix You

Prologue

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

'Limwell.. please!' I am crying hard. Reall' hard. Begging for him not to leave.

'Stop it Alyssa. Nasasaktan kana. Please, stop this madness.' he pleaded but as I looked into his eyes. No, there's no emotions you can see. I want him to be hurt. I want to see him hurting because of his decisions. Because of this!

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

'No..no,no! Don't do this to me. Y-you love me..right?' Another sob escape from my mouth. Tears are streaming down my face. I can't take it. I won't and I wouldn't.

'No.' ni hindi man lang siya nag-isip. He din't even think twice! 'It's just a bet. I won already so why would I continue this.. this shit?'

Just a bet? Am I a thing?

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

'B-but you told me you love me. Am I just a bet? Wala ka man lang nararamdaman para sakin?' I cried my heart out. My heart's aching. 'W-hy me?' I asked in greeted teeth?

Could it be worse?

'Because you're interesting, challenging. In short, pakipot. Pa'hard-to-get.' dire-diretso niyang sabe. Parang wala lang ako sa kanya. Hindi siya yung... yung Limwell na kilala ko.

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

'Hindi.. hindi ikaw si Limwell.' I tried so hard to force a laugh. I succeeded but who am I fooling? I'm torn. 'I never treated you like shit. I make sure that everyday you'll always feel my love for you! How could you do this to me? H-how could you?' this time I didn't force a laugh nor a smile. I let pain devour me. I let myself feel the pain.

'It's no big deal, lys. How could the devil fall for a shit? You're just one of the rest. That ain't big deal.' he started walking away. No, you're not gonna leave me like this.

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

'Stop.. stop right there!' I ran towards him and hug his back. 'P-lease.' I sob and sob. 'K-kakalimutan ko ang lahat. J-just please.. Limwell' My lips are trembling because of pain. 'Just.. d-don't leave me.' I whispered.

I'll beg. I'll beg and beg hanggang sa ako na mismo ang mapagod. Until my heart will give up. Until my tears won't fall anymore because of him. No more what if's. Because I tried everything and gave my all.

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

We stayed like that for a couple of minutes. He just stood there. He didn't talk nor move. He just stood there! I don't know what is going inside his mind anymore.

Tears stream down on your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I

'No.' biglang niyang binasag ang katahimikan saming dalawa.

Napaawang ang labi ko. And tears began to flow in my eyes again. 'I told you. This is just a bet. Y-yes.. just a bet.' he whispered the last sentence that come out of his mouth.

'No.. this ain't just a.. bet, L-limwell. Please, I beg you. Don't fall out of love for me. Don't l-leave me like this!' I cried. I cried just like a kid.

'Im sorry, lys. Stop this! May pinagsamahan din namn tayo kahit papano pero hanggang dun nalang yun!' he said grumpily. 'Don't set your hopes too high. Dissapoinments hurt the most. Just f-cking stop.'

Tears stream down on your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

'Yes. I-i'll stop. Pero hangga't kaya ko, I'll plead for you to love me again. Para bumalik tayo sa dati. Hindi yung ganito. I'm broke but that doens't mean I love you less. I'm broke into tiny pieces but only you can fix me. Only your love can fix me.' I stated at kinalas ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. I turn my back on him but after a few steps I stopped and left my words in the air.

'Ang pagtalikod ko sa'yo ngayon ay hindi nangangahulugang sumusuko nako. I'm just resting my heart for awhile because I don't want to fall out of love just because of too much pain.'

Tears stream down on your face

And I

I started walking again but then he spoke.

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

'Just.. move on because I won't be the one. Just fall out of love because I don't love you and I will not love you. Not today, not tomorrow. I won't be the one to fix you because that's not my business. It's someone's. Have a good life!' and he exited.

The pain will be vanquished. And love won't be there anymore.