song of the chapter- chasing california, oh, weatherly
The day that Eva was dreading had finally arrived. She woke up wrapped in Theo's arms, a blanket covering them. When she looked over her shoulder she saw Alex cuddled up in a bundle of blankets and pillows on a recliner in her room. They both looked so care free and relaxed, like the stress of what today held, the stress of what she told them last night, wasn't weighing them down in even the slightest. As she thought more and more, her head began to swim and the room felt substantially warmer. Her fingers felt numb and her chest felt like someone had lit her lungs on fire. She carefully untangled herself from Theo's arms, stumbling as quietly as she could from her bed room and practically running down the stairs and out the back door, trying to breathe in the crisp air. She felt cooler, but it still was no use. She couldn't breathe.
Eva, as carefully as she could, slid down to the concrete patio and out her head between her knees, trying her best to fight off the dizzy fuzz of her head from the lack of oxygen. She felt someone sit next to her, their hands calloused just the slightest from bass and carefully inked lines wrapping around their wrist.
Tyler's hand tapped in her knee gently, providing a steady beat and something to focus on. Her breathing was still heavy, and air wasn't coming in as easily as it usually would after that age old trick, but she was grateful for the fog of her brain starting to clear. "Ty-Tyler, it's-s s-s-till hard t-to, breathe." He moved himself to be in front of her, taking her shaking hands in his and tracing patterns into her palms. Comfort. She tried to keep a steady beat in her mind, her breathing soon returning to normal. She looked up at Tyler slowly, the brightness of early morning still semi blinding. "Thank you," she whispered, leaning into his already open arms. "Always," he replied, rubbing circles into her back gently.
"I'm so scared Ty," she said, breaking the silence between them. "This is so much worse than before. It's never been this bad. I've never blindly tried to die, and I don't want to, but it's like my body has just given up on me." He inhales sharply at her thoughts, his whole body hesitating for a moment at the realization. He still is trying to fully recover from what happened. "E," he started gently, not really knowing what to say. "I know it feels like everything is against you, but this fight is worth it all. I promise." She nodded into his chest, grateful for his strength and his words and his comfort. "What if they put me into a center or something? Am I able to handle that?" Now Tyler pulled away just enough to look into this small girl's eyes, the eyes of someone who had become so important to him.
"You can handle anything. You are one of the strongest people I've ever known, and you can get through whatever happens. And wherever you go, you will get better Eva." Tears filled her eyes and she smiled slightly and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I love you Tyler," she whispered, feeling the pull of his cheeks as he grinned. "I love you too E." Eva checked her phone, seeing that it was seven in the morning. "Why are you up so early?"
"I couldn't sleep and I heard to run out here. I figured you were scared." Eva nodded at his response before replying. "Are you scared?" Tyler looked at her then back at his hands, still conjoined with hers carefully. He bit his lip slightly and nodded. "I just don't want to see you have to go through all of this." They both sat in a long silence, letting the weight of his words hang limply in the air. "I know you don't, but thank you for staying with me anyway." He looked up at her and smiled. "Always." She smiled at that and the two sat there for a long time before moving back inside. Eva laid in the couch with her head in Tyler's lap as he watched something on the TV and she slowly drifted into sleep. She only had a few more hours before the appointment that determined everything. She would finally know how broken she really was.
a/n: here's a new part. i'm sorry it's more filler than part of the plot but i thought it needed to be there. i had something very bad happen to a friend of mine from school and it's been taking a major toll on me and my mental health. last night was very rough but this band really helped me out. listen to keep on listening by them as well. i love you guys and make sure you take breaks from everything if you need to. stay safe, stay alive |-/
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