All my life I've wanted to be a sword swallower. I always thought it was so fascinating and strangely beautiful like an ancient art. It's always been my dream.
And I know what everyone says. That's it's crazy. That it's weird. But I'm a girl. I'm too young. It's too dangerous.
I've heard a lot of things and I know no one thinks I can do it, but I know I can. I know what risks I'd be taking and I am willing to take those risks.
Why live if you can't do what you love.
I'm going to let fear get in the way. And I'm not letting age get in the way either.
I know I can't be taught because of the risks of injury and no one wants to be responsible for anything that could happen. I understand that. But I don't need a teacher. If others have done it before me, without teachers and without help, then I know I can too.
Once upon a time, I let people convince me to give up on things that were very important to me, but I'm not going to let that happen anymore.
For once in my life I just want to do something for me, and that's chasing my dream.
I don't need anyone to believe in me, I don't need anyones support because I believe in myself. I'm finally going to do something I love and not give up, because honestly, I've never really followed through with anything in my life.
I always let others bring me down and tell me I can't, and it makes me a little disappointed and disgusted.
I always told myself I didn't care about what others thought of me, but I realized that I do care..too much.
But then I started hearing and reading these stories about people doing these impossible things no matter what obstacle came into place. Because it was their dream. And I was so inspired.
And that's what I want to do. I want to mean something to someone. I want to inspire people. Doing what I love no matter what other's think. That's what I want to do. I want to stop giving up and stop letting others discourage me.
I'm sorry for my ranting, but this is very important to me.
I'm sick of people telling me I'm a freak because I'm different and I can't do things others can because I'm a girl.
I've never been so determined to do something my whole life. I don't want to be one of those people who just settles for a job just to get by. No. I want to do what I love.
And I am smart, and careful, and I will be safe. At least as safe as I can be considering the circumstances. I have done and will continue to do a lot of research on the history and risks of sword swallowing, and human anatomy. But I have no way to be taught by a professional, so what? That's it? I should just give up there until I can find a teacher? Of coarse that's what they're going to tell me. Don't do it without a professional.
But people HAVE taught themselves before so I know I can do it. I can do anything anyone else can do so long as I stay determined.
Yes, I understand why people try to persuade me to pursue a safer career, but this is my dream, and I'm determined to follow it.
No matter what the risk. I will be responsible for any injuries I may obtain.
I am not afraid of pain.
I embrace it.
