I don’t know how to start this but I think as a “writer” (self declared) this is my way of expressing my happiness, my disappointments and regrets in my life.
Have you ever been hurt? Or hurt somebody? I guess all had experienced that.
Today, I hurt someone because they fail to tell me the truth. The sad thing is that I was called “plastic girl”. Sa lahat ng sinabi sakin ang pinakamasakit na tinawag sakin is “plastic girl and a backstabber”, okey lang naman sakin na laitin ang pisikal kung itsura kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na totoo naman. I was never a “plastic girl or a backstabber” I was true to everyone around me, I just don’t know how to express myself through verbal that every time that I am disappointed or angry to someone else, I posted it through my facebook account. I know that it’s so wrong. It’s wrong. They hurt me first and mali ko na nagpost pa ako ng mga foul words against them as a return. Wish I could turn back time, those times that I’m still on my comfort zone and no one’s talking to me and I feel that I was still free. I was never a “plastic girl” because what you can see to me is what you can get. I know I was wrong and I am willing to apologize (still apologizing). I was betrayed again. I was again, from the people whom I cherished. I never thought na magagawa nila yun sakin (ibang tao naman). Hindi ko alam kung san na lulugar, di ko alam kung sino pagkakatiwalaan ko (ang hirap magtiwala). Alam mo yung niloko ka ng mga taong akala mo totoo sa’yo pero hindi pala. Never make me angry (lahat naman ata ng tao gusto na hindi magalit) pero dumating lang talaga yung oras na I burst out and posted my disappointments and jealousy through that social media. Some people will understand me and I know some will not. I don’t require them to understand me but I hope there’s still space for them to give considerations from what I’ve done. Hoping that they will accept my apology later on. Nanghihingi ako ng tawad sa lahat ng nasaktan ko (particularly from a friend and her mother). Sana mapatawad niyo ako sa nasabi ko sa social media.
Lubos akong natutuwa nung simula’t sapol na nakilala ko kayo. Patawad uli (sana dumating ang araw na yun).
