A Love Forbidden

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"LADY ANNMARIE, LADY ANNMARIE ARE YOU EVEN PAYING ATTENTION?"

Hun, dear lord I've been staring at Naomi's eyes the whole time how am I going to explain this one now. This has been the third time this week I've stared off into Naomi's eyes during tea time, her eyes are brown with specks of green inside then their almond shaped. These eyes are the type of eyes that you could get lost in. The type of eyes I get lost in every single day when she's around, I know I shouldn't but I do.

"Madam Rose, pardon me I haven't been feeling well recently please tell me what you were saying again."

"Lady Annmarie do you want me to take you to the doctor after morning tea?" asked Naomi

Great, Naomi from all people asked I really wanted to say yes, however I couldn't I just couldn't it would risk me showing my true feelings especially when these feelings are illegal. It was hard enough being around her in a room filled with people, I couldn't imagine being with just me and her together.

"It's fine Lady Naomi I've just haven't been feeling well."

"Probably because you're going to meet the sir you're going to spend the rest of your life with tomorrow" added in one of the ladies in the court.

Thank you for reminding me, Lady Elizabeth, I'm getting married to a man I don't know, to a man I don't love but I a man who has payed my father is getting a hefty sum for my hand in marriage. The money will be able to keep my family going for hundreds of years. My mother knows this, my father knows this and most importantly I know this. Even if I hated getting married to man with everything in my soul it had to be done and I was okay with this if this meant the well being of my family.

As I continued to have morning tea with the ladies of the court, I couldn't stop looking at Naomi. Everything about her was amazing her lips were gorgeous their bow-shaped that were naturally tinted pink, her hair was in beautiful up-do with a few strands of her hair on her cheek.

Oh how much I hated myself because I had these feelings, how disgusting I truly am with the way I feel I shouldn't feel this way because its not normal. But I can't just say how I feel because I'll probably be sent into a institution for the mentally ill but most importantly I'll disappoint my parents, everyone I care for would look at me in such a different light. I knew I had to stop these thoughts but how? How will I stop who I am when I am disgusting. Just then my train of thought was destroyed someone was talking to me.

"Lady Annmarie are you feeling any better? If not I can still take you to the doctors I wouldn't want a lady of the court to feel bad before she is set to meet her future husband?" said Naomi.

"Truly Lady Naomi I'm fine, if I don't find it that I feel better. I'll go to the doctor okay."

"Are you sure Lady Annmarie it truly won't be a bother to me, I need to get out my estate more and helping a friend will be fine?" said Naomi.

Ugh, how much I wanted to say yes how I held the words on the tip of my tongue but I knew what was best. What would I do if I was alone with Naomi, would I try to kiss her? I knew I couldn't, I knew I shouldn't so I had to say no even if everything inside my soul yearned to say yes.

This girl was an amazing girl not just because of her looks but her personality she's incredibly kind to others. I've seen her give the clothes on her back to people in need and that just made me fall in love with her more. If she was a guy I wouldn't wait to be with her. I would marry her right away but she's not a guy so I need to stop humoring dumb ideas .

"Okay ladies tea is adjourned! Everyone may return to their everyday lives till tomorrow" said Madam Rose.

As I started getting up from my seat in the tea room at Madam Roses house I saw Naomi's hair got caught in the light her naturally dark brown hair looked lighter. I knew I was staring so I turned right away but right before I turned I saw Naomi she was smiling but she wasn't smiling at noting her smile was directed at me! But why? Why would a girl like Naomi smile at a girl?

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Part One is Done

-Author-

Tell me how you feel about this story so far, its been extremely long since I wrote anything so please bare with me!