Whispers | yoonmin.

but even then;

"I saw you panic when the doctor announced that you could go home soon. He said that these few months were tough, but you've finally put on enough weight to be deemed healthy again. Everyone was celebrating and causing a ruckus in the hospital, but who could blame them? The dorm was not the same without you; we missed you. Plans were being made; ideas about what to do were being thrown across the room. But in all that chaos, I saw the worry in your eyes. You were overwhelmed by everything; all your concerns and insecurities were flashing through your mind and you didn't know how to fix it. I know you're worried because after all this time, you don't know how to go back to the usual routine; you don't know if you can even do it. But don't worry Minnie, I'll be here to help you figure it out every step of the way. I only hope you'll let me.

Goodnight Minnie, sweet dreams."

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"I saw how weary you were; hesitantly entering the dorm again after all these months. I know you're scared that you'll relapse; that you won't be able to cope. I know that deep down, you're afraid that you won't be good enough to join bangtan again; that you'll disappoint us. But I hope you know that that's ridiculous; there's nothing in this world you can do that'll make us kick you out. I mean, you can always decide to quit. But even then, I doubt we'll let you go. I sure as hell would never let you go, not without one hell of a fight. And I'm pretty sure I would win, since you know, I'm your favourite hyung and you'll always listen to me.

Goodnight Minnie, sweet dreams."

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"I saw how nervous you were when you joined us for dinner today; when jin-hyung scooped the food on your plate. I know you were trying your best to fight the bad thoughts in your mind. I could see the pain in your eyes, along with how hesitant you were to bring the spoon to your mouth. And I'm sure it didn't help, having all of us sitting at the table watching your every move. I'm sorry about that Minnie, I'll ask jin-hyung if we could maybe eat in smaller groups for the time being, so you wouldn't feel so stressed and pressured. I just want to say that I know dinner was painful, but I'm immensely proud of you for doing your best to finish the meal. I'll don't think I can ever not be proud of you.

Goodnight Minnie, sweet dreams."

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"I saw how miserable you were at the press conference and fan sign today. I told our manager that it was way too soon to be throwing you out into the public eye, but they didn't listen. I kept protesting but it fell on deaf ears. Throughout the event, you were trying so hard to suppress your discomfort and make the fans happy. It made me furious Minnie. I hated seeing you forced into situations that make you uncomfortable. Not only were there fans but there were reporters too and they kept asking you insensitive questions. With every comment that they directed towards you, I could feel you shrink in your seat and God Minnie, I wanted so badly to just drag you away and bring you home. I wanted to put my arms around you and hide you from the thoughtlessness of the world. I'm so sorry you had to go through this today, I'm sorry they made you cry. I wish I could protect you from all things bad Minnie, I really wish I could. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry you got hurt today. I'll try harder to protect you, I promise.

Goodnight Minnie, sweet dreams."

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"I saw how uncomfortable you were around everyone the past few days. It was obvious that you felt out of place, like you didn't know how to behave. You were quiet and hardly joined in on our conversations. But we got it; we understood that you were going through a myriad of emotions and most probably didn't know how to deal with it. And knowing you Minnie, I bet you were just keeping it all in because you didn't want to bother any of us. But please trust me when I say that you can come to me any time any day and I would gladly drop everything to come and help you. I think I'll ask the members to try to make everything as normal as possible; to not walk on eggshells around you because I think you need your normal routine back in order to feel normal again, you know? I hope I'm doing the right thing.

Goodnight Minnie, sweet dreams."

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I saw how frightened you were today when you said you wanted to talk to us. Oh how I hoped that I didn't do the wrong thing by asking the members to treat you normally. I just sat there and prayed that I didn't make you unhappy or hurt you in any way, because I wouldn't forgive myself if I did. You took a deep breath and told us that you appreciate everything we've been doing and that we've been helping you more than we could ever imagine. But, you said, you needed some time alone and you hoped we would respect that decision and leave you be until you decided it was time. I wanted to say no, that I couldn't bear the thought of you being alone. But before I could get a word in, you walked to your room and closed the door. All I can do now is just sit here in a pool of my tears and pray that you didn't close the door for good. Not before I even had a chance to go in.

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Come out soon Minnie, please. I have so much worry in me that I don't know what to do with it. I would do anything you want if you could just let me know that you're okay. I'm trying so hard to give you space but I'm terrified of what's going through your mind. I don't want you to do something bad again. Please Minnie, open the door. I need to know that you're okay. I need to show you that I'm here for you and that everything will be okay again. Please.