Dance For You Exotic and Jacquees (Coming Soon)

Painful Conversation....

Exotic

It has been two days since I woke up from my coma. I was now out of ICU and placed in a regular room. I knew it was time to face reality, but I really didn't wanna have to do this at all, but in the two days I have been evaluated and I have been talking to Dr. Sentell. Trying to deal with all this shit is hard and then thinking about seeing my mother has really put a toll on me. I am trying to stay strong for the sakes of my sanity and for my mom. She was saying so much without really telling me enough to fully understand.

I haven't saw my aunt, Sharee or Andie since day before yesterday. I know its some shit going on but nobody wants to say anything. When I think about Ja and that night I walked in on him and that bitch Skye it hurts me so much, but what can I do? The sad part is I still love him so damn much, but I am still hurting and confused because I feel like I should hate him. I can't hate him tho because I love him too much. I do hate Skye's ass tho. She did all this shit for some dick, when it is so much dick out here. I just don't understand these desperate and thirsty ho's these days. I mean if a nigga has moved on, why in the hell waste time trying to ruin somebody else's happiness.

I sighed rubbing my hands down my face because I just felt so lost and empty. I know Ja will be here soon and I really don't know what to say or really how to feel. I just wish I could go back in time and all this could be a bad dream. Shit all my life my dreams have been real life realites. I took a moment to calm my nerves because I could feel myself getting worked up and for me that was not a good thing right now.

My room door opened and in walked Ja with a big brown teddy bear and some get well balloons. It was so cute. I couldn't help the smile that graced my face. In spite of everything Ja was sweet and so thoughtful. He walked over to my bed and placed the bear on the bed with me as the ballons floated to the ceiling.

"Hey Exotic." He said nervously, but with so much sadness.

"Hey Ja. Thanks for the bear and the balloons." I said reaching out to him.

He looked surprised and hesitant at first, but he then took my hand. We stared in each others eyes for what seem like an eternity. How I missed those soulful brown eyes boring into mines. I felt that there was no need to prolong this because no matter how you looked at it, it was going to be a painful conversation....

I took a moment to study his appearance. His dreads were pulled back and he looked tired. He looked lost, hurt, and heart-broken.

"Ja what happened that night with you and Skye?" I said barely above a whisper.

He looked down at our hands clasped together and then back up at me with so many emotions reflecting in his eyes.

"Exotic, first I wanna apologize because I would never intentionally hurt you like that."

I looked away from him to keep the tears from falling. I never thought I would have to have this type of conversation with Ja, but shit happens. I just hate it had to be this that happened. I turned back to look at him so that he could continue.

"That night I was sitting in the vip room alone. I was waiting on my special guest as I drunk on my hennessey. In my mind I was saying I hope it's Exotic, because I wanted to see you. No sooner than that thought crossed my mind Skye walked in." He paused to gather his thoughts.

"I was confused because I knew damn well she wasn't my guest at least that is what I was hoping. I became angry and wanted to know why she was there. She was trying to be all coy and seductive, but that shit wasn't doing nothing for me. Only you have that type of effect on me." He added causing me to smile a little bit.

"I am confused Ja. How the hell did she know you would be in there? I understand her knowing about the party, but Ja I was the one who had got that private vip room, I was supposed to be your special guest." I looked up at Ja and he had a shocked expression on his face.