I am not myself anymore. Even though I don't remember who that was.... She is no longer here. I know she will never be back....
~Withering Away~
There is this feeling of emptiness I cannot express
It is hard to know who you are when you keep all your memories repressed
There are too many places, people and things I have seen
How I have held on this long is beyond my belief
You think you know I am happy
You think everything is okay; and you cannot see deep inside.
How I am withering away
I have never been life to keep anything I have gotten
It is so hard to remember all I have forgotten
I have tried so many ways but it seems my heart has gone astray
I cry
I scream
However, it never brings the life out of me
What I have become now
How can I be feeling this numb?
I know that hidden deep within my mind
Is something there waiting to tear me apart from the inside?
It will come at the time I cannot predict
While my head and my heart feels so sick
I do not know what I can do to prevent this
Nevertheless, in the end I really need it ...
