My mood changed instantly, I’m not sure how I was feeling beforehand but it was defiantly not like this. My blood slowed down and felt suddenly heavy; my heart pounded not in fear but in worry of what might happen. Beau had a look of pure guilt in his eyes and I knew he meant well, I’m just not sure what to think right now. Do I want this, he is like my brother; we have grown up together like family and this I don’t know this could be pushing the boundaries. I didn’t want to say anything to him, I didn’t want to talk, I really didn’t want anything to do with him, or well for this very moment. I wish he could just walk out that door and give me some space, I don’t think he realises how much this is screwing with my head. From the sudden urges I had towards him and me ignoring them to now him coming onto me like he had read my mind beforehand. My head started to ignore the fact that Beau was sitting next to me in my bed and I laid back down and tried to go back to sleep. As soon as I closed my eyes he placed his hand on my shoulder and kissed my cheek, “Maddie I know you don’t want to do this now and I know I have probably confused you a lot babe but I just need you to hear me okay?” After thinking for a few seconds I moaned and made very small head movements indicating a nod.
Beau lay down with his head on the pillow looking up at my pictures on my ceiling. I had placed photos from pretty much all my life up there, there were photos of me and my family before the accident, photos from my birthdays throughout the years, ones from Christmas, school, ones from living here in the Brooks household and amazing photos of my all-time favourite singer, Justin Beiber. Light slowly creped in through the crack beside my door and my fan as it turned and turned on a continues cycle kept going through life even though every time it turned it knew it would be doing the same thing over and over again. I guess that’s life, even though we know life can be continuous and get boring we still keep marching on; we just have to.
Beaus hang tangled with mine, his breath heavy and calm and even though I knew we would have to talk sooner or later I rethought the moment we were having. This, this is something I could do; a relationship I’m not quite sure. Right now we are friends, best friends but I know in my heart we both want more than that though I guess it’s whether or not I can deal with that right now. The trees outside my window swayed in the wind and the moon shone out like it had something special to show off. I reached next to my bed and grabbed my phone, *10.58pm* I saw the time and yawned, Beau new I wanted to sleep but I think he wanted to get something off his mind first. Without thinking I rolled over so my lips where parallel to his, I closed my eyes and instantly fell into a deep sleep. I felt his hands wrap around my torso and his lips touch mine, even though my body was asleep my mind still kept ticking. I wanted to kiss him back so badly, I wanted to hold him in my arms and never let go. All I dreamed of was being able to call Beau mine and to be able to say he is the one that makes my world stop because without him I have no world.
As the sun shined through my window, I slowly opened my eyes allowing them to readjust to the light. When they came in focus I saw him, sleeping peacefully just him being there was more than enough. I took the blanket off my body and stepped into my slippers, I nearly made it to my door when I heard a groan, “ahh, hey babe where do you think you’re going?” Beau asked in the sexiest voice I had ever heard, he was tired and just woke up and it made my hairs stand on end.
“Sorry did I wake you? I was just going to make some tea, do you want any?”
“No you didn’t wake me, I need to get up anyways and nah I’ll be okay thanks for asking but.”
I nodded my head and proceeded down the stairs into the kitchen, Jai and Luke sat on the couch watching cartoons and on there laptops and Gina was in the kitchen making pancakes. “Hey sleepy head! Where do you and Beau get up to last night? I saw he didn’t sleep in his bed… What happened.” Gina asked with a smirk on her face.
“Hey, wait what?! Nothing, he came into talk and feel asleep I promise nothing happened!”
Luke got hooked in our conversation and stood up, “So Maddie, you and Beau aye?” He said before biting his lip.
“Guys stop, nothing happened and nothing will you are my family.” I replied trying to take in what they were all saying.
“Hahaha oh baby calm down it’s alright we are just messing with you,” Gina reassured before asking if I would like any pancakes.
I nodded and went to sit on the couch with Jai, he turned around and hugged me straight away. “Maddie you won’t believe this look who just tweeted me…” Jai said with the biggest smile on his face. I thought for a second and was about to answer with Ariana or maybe Liam Payne.
“umm, is it Ariana again trying to organise your wedding?”
“No haha, we did all that last night. Right now I’m having a casual conversation with the. Justin. Beiber!”
I fell to the floor, my legs went numb and tears fell from my eyes. “Wait, what, no, huh, please, what?”
Jai hugged me and we both sat on the floor, “It’s okay Maddie I did all of this before, just breathe. Wait, I will tell him that you say hey”
I nearly screamed and felt like running all the way to America just to go see him. Jai smiled and laughed, “haha aw, here eat your pancakes before you faint.” He told me as I felt my heart race 100 miles/hour. I took a bite from one of the pancakes and felt my tummy grumble, I had to eat more. After I had eaten around 4, I grabbed a cup of tea, hugged Jai again and ran back upstairs to Beau.
He was sitting on my bed with his shirt off tensing his muscles in my mirror. As I walked into my room my heart started to pound once again, this time for a different reason. Beau smiled and lay back down, “So mads, I was thinking I want to talk. Talk about you know, us and us being a whole.. um yeah you know all that stuff.” I had to run the words through my mind a few times as I walked to my bed but I finally smiled and replied, “Yeah I know, I want to talk about all that to but after this.” I crawled on top of him and kissed him, I kissed him like I meant it and felt his arms wrap around my body. Our lips were connected for a good 15 minutes before I heard one of the twins walking up the stairs, I quickly stoped and lay next to him. “What do you think of that?” I asked Beau as his messed his hair up. “Yeah, that’s defiantly something I want to do again. Something I could do more with.” I smiled and bit my lip, I didn’t really know what to feel but I knew it was something good. I hope.
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