LOVE & ABUSED

Death

I Was driving with my music blaring. Ignoring my mother's call for the 5th time I turned it off. I was going to my old friend who could help.
"Wassup. You got it.?" I said
"Yeah. Just be careful don't do what you did last time." He said before giving it to me. I got in the car and drove to a nearby park. I took 5 exticy pills and rolled up my blunt. I smoked till I couldn't anymore. I got in my car and drove home. It took 45 minutes to get home but I didn't care I was tired of feeling. When I got home everyone was up.
"Where have you been.!" My mother yelled
"Out" I said nonchalantly
"Out? It's 5 In The Morning where have you been.?!" She said again.
"Didn't I say I was out. Stop bugging me.!"I yelled back
"Sid" Mimi said quietly. I looked at her and softened up but then remembered what she said. And walked off. Slamming my door. I started blaring my music blocking out the sounds of knocks. I slid to the floor and began to cry. I took out my blade and made 9 long marks. I just wanted to die. I passed out on the bathroom floor.
Next day-
I woke up with a headache and my arm hurted. Then all the memories from the rape to last night. And I lost it. I threw everything on the floor and screamed at the top of my lungs. "I WANT TO DIEE.!!" So I took my blade and slit my wrist. Cutting the other one everything went black.
-mimi's pov-
I woke up to sid screaming she wanted to die. I knew she had issues but I didn't know what I said would push her to the edge. I got up running to her room but it was locked. My mom kicked It in and there was all that blood and sid sprawled out on the floor.
"Call the ambulance!"my mom yelled. I ran to my room and called them and told them the address. I was so scared I didn't mean what I said I just... i really missed Alex.
-sid's pov-
Everything was black but I could hear everything. My mom was crying and Mimi was silent. Then the door opened and it was.... Alex
"What Happened.?" She said scared. Like she cares. I told her not to leave me.
" I don't know sweetie. I thought maybe you would know." My mom said above a whisper. I don't care if they cry or in pain. They didn't care about me!
-4 weeks later-
I woke up out of my coma a hour ago. And no one has showed. Love? Right? I should've died.
"I see your woke. I'm Dr.Adams. Since you had a lot of drugs in your system we are keeping you for observation." He said
"Of course " I said lowly not really caring what happened  to me at this point. I've been sitting here for hours watching tv when my mom and sister came in. I just looked and turned back around.
"Mimi" my mom said sternly.
"Sid.?" Mimi said softly. I just kept staring at the wall.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said" her voice was so low and shakey I wanted to hug her but she hurt me the most. She never gave up on me untill that day. I saw it in her eyes. She was finally done with me. It hurts even more.
"Sid. Are you ok?" My mom asked.i slowly got up and walked out. I needed air and the hospital had a beautiful garden. I don't know how long I was out here but my mom and Mimi left. Turning around I saw Alex. I turned back and walked away.
"Sid!" She called. I Kept walking.
"Sid. Talk to me. Please. Why did you do it? I thought you stopped? Sid talk to me.?!" I could tell she was getting annoyed but I was even more mad now. She left me!
"Why! So you can leave again? Huh? Just walk in having me thinking I had somebody to love and who loved me. Then leave. I trusted you. I opened up to you. You left me. Standing in the cold all alone. You left. Then you came back. And you did it again. I asked you not to leave. And you left." I said in one breath raising my voice then lowering it again  through out my rant.
" I told you i-"
" No. You don't get to do that. You don't get to leave then come back and make it better. Bye." I said walking off
"Sid!" She called but I didn't stop. Why couldn't I just die.
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That's all for tonight  my lovelies I'm tired.
UNICORN 🦄