Dear Kyle❥
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Hello 🌴🌴
I just finished watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I don't think I've ever cried that much since TFIOS. I noticed that I only cry in sad romantic movies , but those kinds that aren't cliche. The ones that actually mean something , I cry because in those kinds of movies , it always makes me think about you. In TFIOS , the way Hazel and Gus loved each other ,
it wasn't even love , it was way more than that , somehow. The way Charlie thought of Sam and how he loved her. It's all so ... you.
Towards the end of the movie , I cried so hard that I felt some kind of pain in my heart. Charlie ( Logan Lerman bæ ) was having flashbacks of all the things that gave him pain. And tears fell from his eyes but he kept saying "stop crying". That's when I lost it and sobbed. But not much tears left my eyes , sounds left my mouth but I blocked them with my pillow , didn't want to wake my mom. I'm crying right now , actually.
I love you with a love that's more than love , Kyle. A lot of nights end up like this , me sobbing , writing something about you. Just to let all of it out. It's been a lot of months , maybe a year , since I first saw you. You were cute but you weren't a big deal to me. As the days went on , I kept seeing you. And slowly I fell in love, it took me 3 or 4 months I think to realize that you were actually a big deal. And it took me until a year to realize that ,
I don't think I'll ever forget about you , I'll love you forever. I haven't physically seen you in SO long , but I don't love you any less.
And I think , your love is the only thing that can heal my brokenness. It's a bad thing to think , but I'll only stop thinking that if you stop giving me reasons to.
I love you Kyle ;
From me. ❥
