if i was your love

| Prologue

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Friendship.

A strong love between people.

From where Love started.

From where couples, marriage, started.

What If It was where you and me started?

Would I be brave enough to tell you how I actually feel?

Would I hide my feelings just to keep our friendship?

Would I just hide my feelings so that this way I could still be with you, but not your heart with me.

I-it's okay.. at least this way I could still hold you and have you by my side

even though you would really confess to your perfect girl as you illustrate it. Surely, she's someone you deserve so much.

My heart would just shatter when you always talk about it with me.

Of course, I would let out a smile.

If she is you're happiness then why should I interrupt.

Only friends is just the word to describe you and me.

It hurts. But I wanted to be the friend that would support you in your happiness even though it already stabbed and shattered me billion of times.

--no.. more than that. It stabs me like it never ends.

I wanna support you but why I couldn't?

Was I waiting for you..

For you to return the love I was hiding from you?

"Rie, I think I just fell in love with the perfect girl." He looked at me with so much love in his eyes.

My eyes started to water. I looked down. Hiding these feelings.

Hurt. Broken. Love. Sadness.

"Rie, why are you crying?" He hugged me, caressing my back. I felt more teary because of the sudden comfort.

The thought of he was about to leave me alone. The thought of he was in love. With another girl.

And that's not me. Wow, she's so lucky. I felt more teary in his comfort.

I shook my head. "Kook-ah.." I sobbed. He hummed, caressing my back. "I can't believe you liked someone. Is she pretty?" I asked.

"She's not pretty. She's beautiful. Unbelievable beauty she has." He said.

My heart shattered as my tears continued to flow.

"Tell me. Is she kind? Is she a girlfriend material? Describe her." I asked as my tears continued to escape from my swollen eyes.

"She is very kind. She is intelligent. She is anything a man could ever dream of." I could feel him smiling over my shoulder.

I closed my eyes letting all out. I don't know why I'm still asking about his perfect girl.
H

e started to caress my hair making me calm. He really knows me.

When I stopped sobbing, He was about to let go when I hugged him tighter making him taken aback.

"Okay, I will hug you a few more minutes." He said putting me into his embrace.

Just this one last time.

I needed his hug.

I needed his presence.

I needed him.

And..

I need to accept that we weren't for each other.

Because I'm only his best friend. He treats me like his sister.

Nothing more.

Nothing.

Just this one last hug.

Before you leave me.

For your perfect girl.

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