For real...i don't know so much what i will write here and at first i wanna say sorry for my bad english but even that i am not so good at english i can better describe my feelings than in czech so yeah😄
I will tell you what is in my head all day and all night♾
"From the day you start being still with her...she changed"
That told me my friend when i fighted with my best friend and today i have this words in my head and everytime i saw her i think about that if i really ruined her life or just changed it...honestly i still didint found answer for this...
With that best friend...let's call her 'x' With 'x' i became big friends at summer i think and i dont missed anything because with her i was happy...
End of holidays and we started going to school and i was happy beacuse we had really good friendship and my life...i was so happy i have her and another friends...and i am still happy (we are talking about past so i hope you can uderstand that we are still friends and no that our friendship is in pastt)
Her hugs and that days we laughed together...i miss this because now is it little bit another and now i will tell you why...
Another friend told me i am cold to her so i ask 'x' if i am...and guess what was answer.
"Yeah and to me too"...
Yeah i was...i really was cold to my friends and i don't know why...they was so nice to me but i ignored them and was cold to them...why? I am so stupid...
But for day or two days it was okay again...i had this best friendship back and everything was so perfect...but now i will tell you about our last fight...i did it again...i ignored her and was so cold to her...but i was so sorry to this...i cried...still.
But in some way we are okay now but i think it never will be like before...that amazing friendship we had...yeah and that is one thing.
Another story is coming...
It is again about my another bestfriend and this best friend we will call 'd'...
With 'd' we was long distance friends but not internet friends...
She studied on our school but then her family moved to little village and it is 139 kilometres far...
But she went visit me every month so it was okay...
And in city closer to me she had her grandmother so when she were at grandmother's house i visited her there...
And little village close to city where live her grandmother live her best friend and i knew she likes him...
And month after her last visit i started dating with him...
I understand that she was mad but she was saying about me really bad thing and i told myself i will never forgive her this even that i still love her as a friend...
And last month i can get her off my mind...i am thinking about her...often.
She is still telling me how she needs me and i need her too...but i can't just forgive her...and it hurts me...i am hurting myself in that way...
I have so many stories in my head and so many feelings what i can write but...next time.
I hope you enjoyed this story about my boring life without point...kidding.
