Who to Love ( A Connor Franta / O2L Fanfic )

Chapter 5

Grace

As I walked into the O2L house, I was on the verge of crying, my makeup already smudged from crying earlier. I simply did not want to see Connor at the moment, but I needed to talk to him.

Two days ago, Connor and I made a video announcing that we were an official couple. He posted it yesterday. Ever since then, everything got worse.

First, my twitter blew up. I got thousands of new followers, and a ton of mentions I could never imagine reading all of. Not bad, right? No, definitely bad.

People also started noticing me in public, walking-or running-to me to get a picture or a twitter follow. Not bad, right? No, definitely bad.

"Hey, Gra-" Ricky starts, then stops. His eyes widen. "Are you okay?"

"Um, where's Connor?" I ask. I don't feel comfortable with anyone seeing me about to cry, so I need to get away from Ricky.

"His room," Ricky says cautiously, realizing I don't want to talk.

I nod and walk up the stairs of the house, heading to Connor's room. I knock tenderly.

"Come in," Connor calls.

He didn't call me over or anything, so he's not expecting me right now. I just showed up.

I push the door in, spotting Connor laying on his bed, playing on his phone. He looks up, jumping from shock when he sees me.

"Grace, what are... Are you okay?" Connor asks, concern filling his eyes. He gets off of his bed and rushes over to me.

This boy, whom I've known for a total of like, six days, is concerned for me.

Connor grabs my arm, leading me over to his bed. He looks down at me and when he does, I simply cannot contain the tears anymore. Seeing him makes me remember everything that just happened.

I put my hands over my face and I feel Connor's arm surround my shoulders and pull me into him. It's comforting.

"What's wrong, Grace?" Connor asks in a soft voice. He rubs small circles on my back.

My small cry has now turned into full sobs that are racking my body.

"Connor," I squeak in between sobs. He pushes my shoulder back slightly, looking down at my face after I pull my hands away. "I can't."

"Can't what, Grace?" Connor says, looking worried.

"They threw things at me Connor," I manage to choke out before a whole new wave of sobs takes over. I squeeze my eyes shut.

"What? Who?" Connor sounds very confused, lost.

"Your fans, they threw things at me."

Silence. And then Connor speaks up.

"What happened. Grace, calm down, you're okay now. Tell me everything."

I take a few minutes of slow breathing, trying to stop the emotions in my head.

When I'm collected, I tell Connor as much as I can.

"I was walking outside of a store, heading to my car. People knew who I was. They started screaming at me, calling me... Then they starting throwing stuff. Water bottles, shoes, a coffee cup..." When I finished telling him, I broke down again, leaning in as Connor pulled me closer to him, stroking my hair and whispering in my ear. He was telling me that everything was okay and that I was safe.

"Connor, what did I... What do I do?" I sob, my hand reaching to touch his chest. My hand meets bare skin.

"Grace, it's okay," Connor soothes. "I know it's hard, and there's nothing you can do to stop it. But I'll always be here for you. Eventually, you'll get to where you can ignore the hate because for every person that gives you hate, five more love you."

"Connor, none of your fans like me," I tell him, thinking of every tweet being hate.

I shouldn't even care. These people don't know me, they are just being rude. Connor and I aren't even really dating!

"Grace, tons of my fans love you!" Connor tells me, pulling away from me and looking into my eyes.

I don't reply to him, not wanting to argue. He doesn't get it. Every single person that knows who he is loves him.

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"Have you ever been out if the country?" Connor asks, turning his head over to look at me. I continue to stare at the ceiling.

"Yeah," I reply, remembering all of the modeling jobs I had in Europe. "I've been to France, England, Spain, you know, that area."

I see him raise his eyebrows and slightly nod.

"I've been out of the country a lot too," Connor explains. I turn my head over on the pillow and look at him, my back still flat on his bed.

After I calmed down from the whole incident, I laid back on his bed and he did the same, both of us staying inches apart. We began talking about anything that could help us get to know each other better.

"For work?" I ask, referring to his YouTube career.

"Yeah, and O2L is about to go on the digi tour which will get me out of the country a few times."

I nod in response, now just staring at Connor.

"Are you upset?" I ask him, watching his eyebrow raise in confusion.

"Upset? About what?" He replies.

"About being stuck with me," I say, secretly hoping he enjoyed the arrangement.

After the way he comforted me, I know that I could learn to be okay with arrangement. I'm hoping he will be too.

"No, no I'm not upset about it. At first I was...because I felt like my freedom was taken away. But you're not too bad," Connor says jokingly, giving me a boyish grin.

"Oh, not too bad?" I parrot, giggling at him.

"Yeah, only slightly annoying," Connor teases.

"Oh, I'm annoying?" I laugh a little, turning my body over, the space between us shrinking. We both look at each other, laughing. My eyes stay locked on his. He leans in closer, the gap becoming ever smaller.

My eyes take a quick glance at his lips. Do I want to kiss him? I don't think I do. But I guess I wouldn't mind... No I want to kiss him. I lean in slightly, nearly touching our lips. But right before we have the chance, Connor's phone starts to ring.

Both of us jump from fright, putting a good amount of distance between us.

He sits up and grabs his phone, groaning when he sees the caller ID. He looks back at me and gives me an apologetic smile.

We almost kissed... I think. I don't know.

Embarrassed, I look at Connor and say, "I'm just gonna...go." I gesture towards the door, quickly walking out. I rush to get to my car as soon as possible.

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GUYS HI I LOVE YOU, I HATE SCHOOL.

LAST NIGHT I SAW ONE DIRECTION AND 5SOS LAST NIGHT AND HAD LITERALLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE OKAY SO I THOUGHT INSTEAD IF HOMEWORK I WOULD GIVE YOY GIYS THIS.

I MEARLY HAD A HEART ATTACK.

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!!

xox -Delilah