I don't know what to say.
I continue to feel alone. In a world I do not believe, or belong in. I want to forget everything in my head. Everything. Theres nothing good in my life anymore. When the fuck did it get this bad? I wait for the grave, the world is dying, and everyday I'm reminded by my body the pain and the mistakes I have made. I will never live it down.
Nobody, nobody could ever love a fuck up like me. I've learned to push people away before they find out I'm a monster. I've learned to make friends with the voices I have in the dark. They are the only ones I can trust anymore.
Leave me. Leave me behind like my father did. Like my mother did, it wasn't her choice though, it is mine. Leave me behind like all my lovers have. Ah, lovers. So many bodies. I want more. All the sexual tension is getting to me. I want to slide my hand down someones body. Hear them moan as I kiss there neck. And bite there lip. I doesn't matter who it is. Just come find me in the dark. Anyone free tonight?
