Saying Goodbye

My dearest Gi,

The day I laid my eyes on you, I knew you were the one for me. The way your beautiful brown/red tinted hair was perfectly straightened, with a bow, and you were wearing your oh so famous blue jeans with a snoopy shirt and a leather jacket. We have been through so much. So many beautiful memories and I still can't get over the fact that you are gone. Everyday, our daughter Ella reminds me of you. She is literally a mini you. We all miss you so much. I wish I can join you up in heaven, but I know that I have my duties as a father. They need me. I promise you that although you are gone, you will always be apart of the kids' lives. I will make sure of that.

The day I went to the doctors with you and found out you had cancer, my heart broke. You were so so young. You have been through so much. But, as it got worse I guess you and I both can say we knew your days were coming to an end, you still putting up a fight, saying you we're fine. But I can tell in your eyes that you were holding on by a thin string. Not wanting to show your pain. I didn't want to let you endure all of that pain. You didn't want to endure anymore pain. I know you wished that you could watch the kids grow up and live happily ever after. I know that the last week you were alive, in the hospital you told me that I should move on when you pass, but I promised god that I would be with you forever. And that is something that I will always keep. you stole my heart, Gi, and I will never get it back. You are the love of my life and just because you passed, it doesn't change it. I love you. Forever and always.

Your husband,

Lou bear xxx