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chapter_14

ROC POV

i sit in the church service we have at the jail as i listen to pastor dean talk about what life has to hold and what life is and how you have to fully grasp it.

when he was finished talking he introduced a man about.my age who just got done serving time.

???:hi i am wade and i am here to talk about my life

he stood at the front of the crowd and stood tall as he spoke

" i am wade and i am here because i served 8 years in federal prison. i murded my child and sold drugs. i meet a girl in high school name sasha. she was a goodie goodie a chruch girl. she was rich and had money. something i needed. i exposed her to drugs selling striping anything you can think of"

i chuckled to myself thinking about aliyah and the first time i exsposed her to selling and weed

FLASH BACK

roc: you take the money first then hand them a rock here try it

aliyah: (hands man a rock) have a nice day

roc: (chuckles) you fucked up. dont say anything just get your money and hand them the weed

aliyah: ughh lets do something easier like smoking

i take aliyah to my friend rostco's house and we roll a joint.

roc: here take a puff

aliyah:  ( takes puff starts coughing) what is this shit?

roc: purple hase

aliyah: ohh
END OF FLASH BACK

i listen to the rest of the story and compare it to aliyah and mines story

" when sasha first got prego i didnt want to keep it. with her being in love with god and being a big religion person she kept it. when the baby was born it made me sick . after a couple of weeks she felt like i could watch the baby by  myself it cried and cried and i didnt cook dinner yet. i season the baby and stuck her in the oven "

he started to cry as if he regreted doing it

" after that when sasha came home and asked what was for dinner i said kimberly. she laughed at me and thought i was joking until she walked to the counter and saw little kimberly in a pan. she called police on me and i served 8 years thankfully. when i was locjed up i would have dreams about kimberly all grown up as a little 8 year old she would always say why did you kill me? tears rolled down her face and dripped on her white silk sundress. i would always say i am sorry but i knew it was too late. i ended up not see my wife and it made me angry. when i finally got home and walked into the bed room i saw her riding another man like a wild dog. life does not wait on you..... neither does love..."

that last part got to me. what of love doesnt wait for you... aliyah could be somewhere getting dicked diwn and i am sitting here rotten. i still cant tell aliyah i had a side hoe before i even got into jail. i jist hope they dont vist at the same time. i feel like i was tired of waiting for aliyah but she was waiting for me.. maybe i am just a bad person.

ROSTCO POV

it was late at night and aliyah and i where going to the movies. we went to see temtations but i wasnt really interested so i decided to slip my hand down her pants.

aliyah: no stop

rostco: shh

aliyah: (swaps hand away)

rostco: ( playing with your lips)

aliyah: (gets up)  i am using the restroom

rostco: okay

i wait for aliyah to come back. after 20 mins i decide to go see what see was doing . i looked everywhere no where to be found where is she.

i decided to finish the movie and she would call if she was in trouble

ALIYAH POV

during the movie rostco was trying ti get in my pants. it is like he cant go a second without having sex with me.

i tell him i am going to the restroomm i grabbed my purse the twizzlers and my drink and leave out the movies i catch the bus and head home i aintbgot time.for.this.bull. shit.

when i get home i look at my phone and see a message from jacob

jacob: hey wanna hang ?

i reply back yes and look at my out fit. i had on  white emoji sweats a whit crop and my hair down crinkly. i watch tv and wait for jacob to come

JACOB POV

i texted aliyah becausw i was bored because kya is out of town and dj wanted to spend more time with bella. i throw on a galaxy tee shirt and gray sweats. i fluff my bush and grab my keys. i head out to my car and sped off to aliyahs house. when i get there i texted her telling her i was outside. when she got in the car i sped off to my house.

SAMARI POV

i told aliyah i was going on a trip with friends but i was at a beach house with ray. i feel so stupid. i am sleeping around with two people and i am only hurting myself. i sit up in the bed and cry silently to myself. i get out the bed and i sit in the sand thinking to myself.

i am stringing aliyah along when i dont have that many feeling for her as i have for ray. i need to make up my mind before someone gets too attached or get they feelings hurt.

i feel someone touch my shoulder and look to see ray. he looked worried and wondered why i was crying.

ray: whats wrong

samari:  i dont know i feel like letting go

ray: what do you mean

samari: you know what i just need sleep

i walk back to the beach house and go back to sleep. i was going to tell im we needed a break but i didnt want one . i wanted to be loved. i wanted someone i could hold and someone who could tell me everything would be alright. but it wasnt. it was an aching pain in my heart that i couldnt let go. maybe ray wasnt the one.

i think back to the night where i was in the bar and i was crying because i felt like a little slut. i man that was 6'0 and was light skin. he had on a pair of jeans and a fitted shirt you could see his 8 pack through

???: hey i am daniel

samari: hey

that night we had deep conversation what turned into sex. it was hot sex. we did it in the back of aliyah's car.

that night he gave me his number and i gave him mine. it was like he had his charms wrapped around be and i was ready to marry him he felt like the one

i try not to get to close so i dont look like someone that throws their self at every man and women that she sees. the woman that tries to get married or into a relationship too fast but i felt something. i had a tingling sensation i could not get out my system. it felt like pop rocks crackling in my stomach. it felt like i was going to pop.

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sleepling on samari hoe ass ✋ so what yall think hoe or nah is rostco in the way of you love life or is he apart of it? is andre in some deep shit in the next chapter. will aliyah or samari be caught?
to be continued....