Amber's POV
"Hali ka na Jess, kain na tayo please. Nagugutom na ako talaga eh. Hindi ko na kaya, baka mahimatay na ako."
I almost curse nang bigla akong matisod sa isang bato. Hayy! Kasalanan to ni Jess eh. Kanina pa kasi siya nakikipag usap dun sa stalker niya. I..I don't even know bakit ako naiinis nang ganito ngayon. I never really acted this way before if ever ma delay man ako sa pagkain or what, but arghhh. I'm really pissed.
"I'm sorry Ethan, kailangan na namin umalis. My bestfriend's hungry."
Ethan laughed a little and kissed Jesse on her cheeks. Mukhang nagulat si Jess but she managed to smile and walked towards me. Bagi pa kami makaalis, tinawag ako ni Ethan.
"Amber! My classmate Jake wanted to say hi."
I just can't stand that guy's face anymore kaya nauna na akong naglakad. Ugh! I'm hungry.
Pagdating sa cafeteria, nag order kami ni Jess nang pizza and soda. We decided na sa garden na lang kumain kasi puno masyado ang canteen. May mga seats pa naman but, we are not used to the attention they are giving to us. After all, we are the campus' princesses. Like I care. Sila sila lang naman gumawa nang title na iyon.
Pagdating sa garden, naupo kami sa damuhan at agad nilantakan ang pizza. Hmmm, so delicious.
"Am??"
I almost did not hear her speak kaya napalingon ako sa kanya. Black eyes, rosey cheeks, pinkish lips, hmm. My bestfriend's really pretty. I hope walang manakit sa kanya. I'd kill the person that will hurt her.
"Amb? Ahm, are you planning or you know, mag say yes sa isa sa mga nanliligaw sayo? I mean, baka naman may tinatago ka na sakin ngayon."
Napatawa naman ako sa sinabi niya. WHAT?! Seryoso ba siya? Hahahaha, I have never been in love. Not with anyone.
"Hahaha, no Jess. Wala akong planong magpaka tanga sa love na yan. I can't afford to be irrational you know."
I smiled at her. Pero tila ayaw niya paawat. Hayy, what's with her today. She's giving me the creeps.
"Hey Jess, what's gotten into you? Ano bang-"
Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko when she suddenly kissed me!!! Hindi ako nakagalaw. I was glued to my position, at ang nasa utak ko lang ngayon ay gusto ko siyang itulak. But, I can't!!! Ano bang nangyayari sa kanya?!!! Sakin?!!!
The bell rang, and that made us back to our senses. I broked the kiss. Parehas kaming hindi makapagsalita. She..she's just there. Nakatitig sakin. Surprise can be seen on her face. At kagaya ko, mukhang hindi niya rin alam ang ginagawa niya.
"I-I'm sorry Amber. H-hindi ko na napigilan sarili ko. I, I'm sorry kung hinalikan kita. I-it's really weird but trust me Amb, I-i've tried countless times pero hindi ko kaya! Hindi ko alam kung bakit, or paano ito nangyari sakin b-but, I..I'm inlove with you."
After she said that, she took off. Tumakbo na lang siya at iniwan ako nang mag isa dito. Ano nga ulit yung sinabi niya? S-she's inlove with whom?!!!!
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Jesse's POV
Gosh! Ano ba yung ginawa ko?!!! I completely went nuts. The hell!!!! Ani na kaya ang iniisip ni Amber ngayon? Galit kaya siya sakin? Or nandiri?!!! Or worse??!!!!! Hindi na niya ako kausapin. Hayyyy!!! Sobrang tanga ko. Nagpadala ako sa emotions ko, and it lead me to this! Crap!
Hayy, you can judge me if you want. Believe me, hindi ako lesbian. I mean, I was never been attracted to a girl before! Ngayon lang, at sa bestfriend ko pa?! Saya diba? Hayy. Hindi ko alam kung paano nagsimula itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. Nagising na lang ako isang araw, na sobrang nagandahan ako sa kanya. She's really pretty. Gorgeous. Don't get me wrong, hindi ko siya nagustuhan nang dahil lang dun. She's really amazing. Unique and genuine. Sa panahon na yun, in denial pa ako. Pero seeing guys courting her, waiting for her outside the classroom, naiinis na ako. Akala ko nga nagseselos lang ako kasi bestfriends kami, and I'm supposed to be there everytime. Pero hindi eh. I..I'm really in love with her.
The moment that I fell inlove with her, I definetly went off the track. I know the world is cruel out there, but I want to take the risk. She's worth the risk. Sana nga lang, kahit imposible, sana..sana piliin niya rin ako. Kung kailangan kung pumila sa mga nanliligaw sa kanya gagawin ko. I love her so much. I can risk everything for her. Even my popularity and myself.
Nasa school na ako, at wala pa rin siya. Kinakabahan na ako. Hindi ko alam kung paano siya kakausapin or what? Ninakaw ko lang naman first kiss niya. And by stealing it, I also lost mine. Hayyy.
"Jess?"
Sa sobrang gulat ko, I almost jerked out of my seat. Si Ethan lang pala. Hayyy.
"Can I talk to you?"
Magsasalita na sana ako, nang may biglang humawak sa kamay ko at kinaladkad ako papuntang girls CR. Pinalabas niya ang ibang babae, and locked the door immediately. Anong?
"Okay Jesseriel. Let's talk!"
I can see pain and confusion in her eyes. Hayy, ano ba itong nagawa ko.
"Tell me Jess, trip mo lang ba talaga akong lokohin ha?!! Is this the payback for all the pranks i did? O-or, is this your way of persuading me not to leave the country after graduation?! Gosh! Does it have to be this far?!! Hindi ako nakatulog Jess! I kept thinking about you, a-and the kiss? That what if, mahal mo nga talaga ako, bilang ako and not just your friend. I never felt this before Jess, pero natatakot ako. Kasi alam ko, if I'll accept this feeling I have right now, mahulog ako sa-"
Hindi ko na siya pinagsalita pa and I kissed her, AGAIN! She felt it too. The feeling I am having inside. Mahal niya rin ako. I can feel it. Our kiss last for 10 seconds at hinawakan ko siya sa pisngi. I can clearly see her brown eyes. She's a goddess.
"Look Amber, natatakot din ako sa pwedeng mangyari. Maraming mapanghusga sa labas nang pintong yan. But I want to take the leap kasi alam ko mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. I can't afford to loose you. Not now, not ever. So if you'll give me a chance, papatunayan ko sayo na I'm worth it."
Hesitations. I can feel nag aalangan siya kaya binitawan ko na sya.
"If you'll choose to be with me, to fight this feeling we have, you walk out that door with me. Pero kung-"
May voice cracked dahil naiiyak na ako. Babae din ako. I'm vulnerable. Not every girl can experience some confessing to someone. Not with the same gender as you. And to add the crap up, sa bestfriend mo pa.
"Pero kung ayaw mo and that we will just pretend it never happened, maiintindihan ko. Walk out of that door first, walk out without me."
Mga ilang segundo pa bago siya tumalikod at hinarap ang pinto. I swear naiiyak na ako, pero kailangan kung pigilan. Atleast I tried. Nakita kong pinihit niya ang door knob and opened the door. Nakita ko sa labas may iilan na ring nakapila para makapasok sa CR. Hindi naman ako natatakot na marinig nila iyong pinag usapan namin ni Amber. I am completely open sa kung ano man ako ngayon. I'm happy I confessed. Atleast nasabi ko. Atleast nalaman niya. Nang bestfriend ko.
"Ahm Jess, hali kana. Ano pa hinihintay mo diyan? May class pa tayo."
I almost shouted nung sinabi niya yun. Ibig sabihin-
"Let's take the risk together. I, I love you too."
She walks towards me and held my hand. Ngumiti siya at hinila ako palabas. I can't contain my happiness now. Pero I surpressed it. Hindi pa, hindi pa ngayon.
Nagtataka ang mga mukha nang mga schoolmates namin. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba yun sa kung bakit ang tagal namin sa loob at nag lock pa talaga kami, or is it because of our hands. Hayyy basta ang alam ko lang ngayon, lalaban kami. We are taking the risk. Kasi parehas naming alam, it is going to be worth it. :)
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September 12, 2018
