The fault in our Stars sequel

Hazel's P.O.V.

It has been 8 days since Gus's funeral,16 since his pre-funeral.
I wake up everyday and feel normal, then reality sets in that he is gone. I can't believe he is gone. I've barely eaten or left my room since. Isaac called me and he asked "How are you doing?" "Okay, I guess. I just wish he was here." I say as I burst into a puddle of tears."I know. Me too." He sounds like he is on the brink of tears. I can hear the pain in his voice. "Do you want me to come over?" I said nothing. My head is throbbing and there is stabbing pain in my gut. "Hazel...?". "Oh... Sure.". 10 minutes later Isaac and his mom came in. He came up stairs and I walked him to the bed. "I know, It's just not fair.". He said as he burst into tears. Suddenly I felt nauseous and ran out to the bathroom down the hall. I started wretching into the bath tub. Mom came in and patted my back. Isaac came in and said "Hazel,you okay?" This continued for 10 minutes.My dad was concerned so he drove us to the hospital. I sat in the back with Mom throwing up while dad was driving and Isaac sat in the front seat quietly. When we were 5 minutes away I got very dizzy and started to pass out. I didn't even fight it. I closed my eyes and I saw Gus we were on a bridge like the one in Amsterdam. He reached over and grabbed my waist. He pulled me tight and said "I love you and I will never stop." He looked into my eyes and pulled me close and his lips touched mine and it felt like it was before."Am I dead?"I asked.
"No,just a dream." He replied. "You need to go now they are waiting." He started to fade away and I saw the white ceiling of the hospital. When I looked down I saw my mom,dad,and Isaac waiting for me. Dad got up to go get a doctor. 2 minutes later a doctor came in. "Hi Hazel,we have good news. There is no new cancer growth!" "That's great,"said Mom. On the inside I am scared because if it isn't that,then what is it. "More good news. Hazel,you are pregnant." No, this can't be happening to me. Then I realized Gus, Amsterdam."Hazel when ..."Mom said."Amsterdam."." We need to call Mr. and Mrs.Waters.". I started to have a panic attack. I can't be a fucking mom. This isn't happening to me. "Hazel,don't worry we aren't mad." Dad said. "How far along am I?" "2.5 months.". Isaac looked at me in shock. He was speechless. "When can I leave?" "Whenever you like." The doctor said enthusiastically. We walked out to the car and dad asked Isaac "Would you like me to drop you off?" "Actually can we stop and see Gus first?" He nodded. As we reached the cemetery I got out of the car and walked to the other side to get Isaac. We link arms and walk through the gate. Gus's grave was easy to find,as I went there all the time. We stopped and looked down.(Isaac did even though he can't see) I helped him sit and we just sat there."Are you going to tell him?" Isaac asked. I nod and start to tear up because this is my reality and I can't change this bull shit. "Hi Gus. I'm pregnant. I really need you now please help me." Nothing around us moves. We just sit in silence." You ready?" Isaac asked."Sure..." I say,even though I don't feel so sure. I go help Isaac to the car and we get in the backseat. The drive to Isaac's was silent. When we got there we get out and get to the top of the drive. Then I help him to the door."I believe in you Hazel Grace." He says as he walks in. I start to tear up because the last person who called me that was Gus. "You okay?" "Yeah" I say with tears in my eyes. I have even though he can't see me. I sit back into the car. "Mr. And Mrs. Waters are coming over for dinner to talk." Great I think more people to judge me. I nod reluctantly. When we get home I just run to my room and start to cry. I go through all my pictures of Gus and smile at them. A single tear hits the paper just as mom enters my room. I quickly shoo her out. I just wish he was here with me, to hug, hold, and love. Soon enough the Waters are here. Reluctantly I walk to greet them and we sit down at the table. Mom made tacos for everyone. "I'm sorry..." I say. They look at me weirdly. "For what,we aren't mad." I look at them in confusion. "We are glad he got to have a family with the girl he loves." My eyes grow wide in shock and I get up and hug them. They feel like my family. When his dad hugs me it reminds me of Gus,when he squeezes me so tight. After they left I went to straight to bed. In the morning there was food left on the night stand. I just rolled back over. Layer that day Isaac came over. We just sit in my bed and I cry and don't see the point of stopping. All of the sudden Isaac scooches towards me and wraps his arms around me "Hazel,you are amazing and you will do this." He said. Now I'm crying even harder. I can tell Isaac doesn't like me crying. When I do he always gets a look of pity on his face."shhhh...shhhh..." He says,even though I can't. He grabs my waist and pulls me into a kiss and I pull away after about 5 seconds. I glare at him. "Leave." I say angrily."But Hazel,I was just trying to make you quieter." He says nervously. "Leave!" I yell. "You do realize I can't see my way out,right?" I walk him to his car where his mom is waiting. When I come inside I look fumed. "What happened?" Mom asked. I start breaking down."He tried to kiss me." She shook her head in disbelief. She held me there for an hour. After that I ate half a peanut butter sandwich and went right to bed. The next day,Isaac came over and came up to my room. He caught me in the middle of reading AIA. "What do you want?" I angrily say. "I want to apologise for what happened yesterday." "For kissing me when I was crying over how I miss my boyfriend and YOUR friend?" " Yes." He said awkwardly. "I did it because..." " Because?". He didn't answer. "Because I wanted you to feel safe,like you were with Gus and I thought. Now I realize that I shouldn't have done that to you." I look at him and start to cry. "I have a feeling that Gus is watching over us." "Why?" "Because when i got home the video game controller went from on the couch to on the floor across the room." I gasp and think of what Gus would say. Then i erupted in tears,but he was there sitting by my side holding me. That's how I knew that he wasn't lying. He is too good of a friend. I get up and run to the bathroom feeling nauseous. I throw up quickly,then went back to my room and I can tell by the look on his face I smelled. So I went to brush my teeth. "Tomorrow is my first altrasound" I say to him. "Will you come with me Isaac,you're my best friend?" "So,we are good I take it?" "Yeah." We drive Isaac home and I ask to visit Gus. We reach the cemetery and I get out and walk quickly to Gus's grave. I sit at his grave and cry. "Gus please help me ,I'm not sure I can do this." I say, weeping. All of the sudden I hear a faint "shhhh" in the wind. I realize he is listening. " I'm sorry about the kiss, I heard you got him back."I laughed. "Bye my Gus." I say as I walk out. Dad is waiting and I get into the car. By the time I get he I am exhausted from the baby and my fucking cancer. So I sleep. I wake up the next day and get ready. On the way to the altrasound we pick up Isaac. Mom is shocked. When we get there I tell mom and dad "please don't be in I just want to be in there with Isaac,it'll feel more like Gus than you two." They nod and when they call me in I lay on the cold metal table and lift my shirt up. I hold Isaac's hand the whole time. "Do you want to know the gender?" I look at Isaac. He can tell and says " whatever Hazel wants." "It's a BOY!!!" She says happily. I smile and Isaac does to. Later we get 4 copies of the baby and we leave the room and find my parents in the room. I give them an altrasound picture and it doesn't show the gender because I want it to surprise them. We get in the car and I can tell mom has 1 million questions."can we go see Gus?" I ask politely "sure, Isaac?" "Of course!" We hey there and I take an altrasound picture with me. Isaac walks alongside me and we start to sit at his grave and I whisper "It's a boy. we are having a boy." All of the sudden a small twig falls and hits Isaac enough to scare him. "I get it she's your lady." He says laughing. I laughed too. I take the altrasound and dig a small hole. "What are you doing?" Isaac says suspiciously."giving one to Gus." He nods. We get up to leave and another thing hits Isaac. "I GET IT." Isaac yells and we both laugh.