Dear boyfriend,
In the whole chaos, the noise of the trains, the honks of the cars, the chatter of people its weird how thoughts just don't disappear, its weird when just to feel better we wish to hurt others. Listening to the songs, i wish i could drown out the noises in my head so loud each time that i try to forget. How can the mind forget what the heart just doesn't want to leave? Each day it is a struggle to not think the same. But one thought of you and everything is the same. All i do is think about you...and wish that you would too...maybe its a wishful thought but why can't you? It gets difficult each day knowing that all day long i just yearn to hear from you a few sweet nothings..the nothings you would once text or tell me... The ones which melted my heart... I wish you would know how difficult it is for me to let go of the things that hurt me all along everyday. You would always know what was wrong with me. I think being busy with your life I'm no more that priority. And yet all i wish for is your happiness... And i wish all the ache of my heart soothes. Cause it hurts seeing someone else the reason for your happiness. You disturbing someone else when your bored. Because all along i was the one for you. I wish i could have had the same position in your life the one you promised me that would always be mine. All this I'll never be able to tell you ever because for you this is all an things that come after an over thinking. But don't you ever wonder why am i over thinking? All along i wanted to be the one for your smile but looks like I've lost all my rights. I just hope she makes you smile and laugh when you feel low. You turn to her and tell her all that you want her to know, all your thoughts, all your fears, the way you cried in front of me i wish all this could always be mine. But maybe life has a way of taking everything away from me. So i hope this goodbye would mean something to you as it means to me. You have my heart always. But i wish yours would be mine. Your heart, your soul and your time. Please forgive me for hurting you ever cause all i wanted was to heal your pains and love you forever. I never knew that chance would be lost so easily by me. But i hope you remember me, at least if I'm dead i would like to be alive in your memories.
Yours eagerly awaiting,
Someone who loves you.
