What I did for Mister Stranger (Exo's Kai and Red Velvet's Irene Fanfiction)

Prologue

                    

Life, is a master piece of various uncertainties and goals

Its face of truth is concealed

Behind the clouds of doubt and fear

I have always sunk in the ocean of bitter tears

Become a slave of life’s mysteries and frauds.

What is this feeling I have inside?

What is this need that I long to have?

I have undergone a lot of smiles and weary crosses,

Yet my heart cannot find the right word to express,

Cannot find the perfect light to guide my way,

And completely vanish my tears and aches.

 

Through several years of restless search and quest,

I’ve finally found an empty place within my heart

My heart that had always been in darkness;

My heart that had often distilled in tears;

Tears which had kept me strong and stable,

Give me various sources of strength and inspirations,

Kept me aloft above the clouds,

Amidst the fatal fog of an unpredictable future,

And the deafening sounds of shrieking voices of hardships and sufferings

 

Probably, my time of truth isn’t coming yet

I still can’t find the treasure that I had been asking for

I have taken hold of fulfillment within myself,

But my search towards perfect happiness hasn’t ended.

Now, the concealed face of life has not reveal itself

And I didn’t know what need was missing inside.

 

For several years I explored my soul,

I have glared at the magnificent brightness of the sun,

I’ve stared at my reflection at the gleaming, clear water of hope.

It just takes time to tell when my feeling will perish.

            At this moment I’m sitting at ‘our’ spot, mine and Kai, the love of my life. The sun is slowly beginning to set over the lake. I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My outside looks have changed drastically within the past few months, but the water reflected the true me. Inside I’m still the same person.

            I have done and given so much for love but never once, have I received it back from Kai. There are times that I wanted to tell him everything that I’ve done for him and make him love me back. But I can’t.

 

              Love is not selfish. Love stories are good to hear when it gives shivery, fuzzy, and giddy feeling. But a great love story sounds better when it is a happy ending. But for “us” with conflicted life, it will always be hard to maintain that shivery, fuzzy, and giddy feeling. How can I say so? It’s just simple; we stupidly search for a guy who will serious enough to accept us whether it is our dramas or misfortunes in life. Unfortunately, there is no such thing as perfect on Earth and true love takes a really long time to exist for those people who is similar of having such this kind of emotions and that will be my greatest endeavor. It is in my nature to keep my identity undisclosed; I can barely express myself as I was living a life like this.

             So I did what felt right. I keep giving Kai my love and I never asked for his love in return. Even though I can’t be someone who can be with him till forever, my love for him will still remain. My story begins when I first met Kai six years ago on this one fateful day.

                It all started out…