Awaken

Chapter 1

As I laid in the cold bloody puddle I could feel myself drifting away from reality. As tears streamed down my snow white skin, I stared into the sky full of stars and saw everything but what I need. Felt as though the world was mute as the travesty unfolded. I reached out touching a cold hand of a woman I use to know. Staring at the faces of gods as they ripped my life apart without a second thought. Speaking of how this is my destiny and how its meant to be. Sitting up surrounded by the casualties of a pointless day. I breathe in and let the tears in my heart bleed till I feel nothing at all. It is hard to remember the feeling of love and sight of acceptance gone from my length of vision. blood dripping from my hands and the hands that touch me pushing me closer to an endless abyss full of forsaken souls. 

Its the same dream over and over again, a memory of when I lost the meaning of hope and home. As my eyes slowly open I find myself in class my head laid on my desk.  My teacher going over a problem showing the class how to solve it step by step. I sigh deeply and look at the seats that remain empty by me. The random couple curious stares from some girls in class. The guys getting angry, I guess its true what they say about girls loving the heartless. The bell rings and all of them stand up abruptly and rush to leave the room. "Aedan." I hear the teachers calm feminine voice over the loud noise. I get up pulling my bag over my shoulder, walking toward her as she sat on her desk with a serious expression across her face.

"You need to stay awake in here, your going to be dropped from the Academy if you keep this up." She went on and on. I couldn't remember her name for the life of me, but then again I never really paid attention. the lives of these people couldn't mean anything to me, I need to look out for me and that means to do what I was told. "I'll try harder." I blandly spoke cutting her off. her eyes widened a bit when I suddenly became assertive. "good." the teacher muttered out in response and sat in her seat. I walked from her toward the crowded halls pushing my way through groups of friends and lovers. past the popular and the average and all that don't even understand how much they have. all of them chirping away their lives so contently some smiling away an others frowning at others for reasons that should not be an excuse to cry. their boyfriends being jerks or pretending they don't exist or their girlfriends doing the same. selfishness with no bounds, that is the way to live I suppose. acting the victim because that's all they know how to do, ignoring their own capabilities and never giving true effort. 

A sudden grip reaches my shoulder and I turn to another hollow group that cant even see whats laid right in front of them. "Aedan my man." The grinning face of the lich Vince with his slicked back hair and arrogant look, the tan skinned brown haired and golden eyed vampire princess with her enthusiastic smile with buried pain hidden in plain view known as Akina and a couple others I had not grown to know at all. For some reason these people have occasionally talked to and messaged me usually when they wanted something or just had none else to talk to. I simply greeted them in a mutter and did our daily ritual of following them to the school's hidden lounge where I sat silent as they spoke on and on rarely looking toward me and asking a question. I often wondered why I was even here or why these people wanted me to near them. maybe to seem associated with the "mute" freak. It didn't matter to me anyway all it managed to do is remind of home. the awkward silence and the uncomfortable feeling I bare with till I just cant take anymore and leave without a goodbye. As these hollow friends of mine would look and then look back down forgetting I was ever even present or maybe not even noticing I left at all. 

I didn't feel like being in that place anyway, so I just started walking to temporary housing. my uncle standing outside with his arms crossed. "you left school early again? your vital to our lord's plan don't go foiling it up now." he snarled with strands of his hair covering his eyes. "sorry I guess, Vivi." I sighed and walked past him. walking straight to my room, which was hollow and dark without a beam of light coming in. I opened my closet and threw my bag by the mirror coated in black paint and turned away laying down on the bed burying my face in the pillow. slowly rolling over to stare at the ceiling I sigh deeply as I honestly think how much I don't want to sleep but honestly its the only thing I felt any more energy to do anymore. and honestly I wanted to see if this would finally be the last time I have to close my eyes. 

To be continued......