today i was cleaning and saw the mementos box. never put the box under my bed or burned it, don't worry. i opened it for the first time since the day you broke up with me. i took a deep breath and pulled off the lid. the first thing on top was the photos. the seflie of us smiling real big at your prom. then the seashells from the beach. then the promposal. then the mini golf card. then the movie tickets. then a couple other photos and little things.
i realized it didn't make me sad anymore to look at them. i felt a little happy, remembering what it was like to spend time with you. i miss that, of course, but i guess i'm accepting more and more that i will not ever get you back so i should just accept everything that's happened and move on. and it's kinda working.
i also realized while looking in thebox how little there actually was in there. i felt like we did so so much together, and granted we did more things together than presented in the box, but it just felt so empty when i looked in. like the emptyness you probably felt when you looked at me. tragic really.
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Romancei fell in love. it didnt end the best way. recently i've been wanting to message him, but i know it isn't a good idea so i write things out in my notes on my phone and leave them there for a day, telling myself that if i still want to send after 24...
