Inside Liam's Head.. (Lirry)

Liam loves spending time with the boys. He loves that Louis always lights up the room by just entering. He loves the way Niall laughs at just about anything. He even loves when Zayn talks in his weird accent.

 His favourite thing of all is the sound Harry makes when he plays with his curls.

He loves all the boys, but there is something about Harry that makes Liam’s palms sweat, his heart race and butterflies erupt in his stomach.

He feels on cloud nine whenever Harry looks at him or when Harry tells him one of his long stories usually ending in Liam losing concentration and just staring at Harry’s beautiful features.

Liam also hates things the boys do, like the way Louis excludes Niall from interviews or video diaries. Or that Zayn smokes and gets tattoos without thinking. Liam hates when Niall farts and burps at inappropriate times, but the thing that Liam hates the most is when Harry brings home random girls and sometimes guys from the club.

It kills Liam when Harry does it, he feels worthless and unloved and he hates himself for feeling that way, but he can’t stop himself from feeling it every single time.

He tries distracting himself from the loud noises coming from Harry’s room like playing Mario cart with Louis or going to Nandos with Niall, he even tried drawing with Zayn, but nothing ever distracts him long enough to not think about the curly haired boy and what his conquest that day/night are doing.

He knows it won’t be long until Niall or one of the other boys realise his ‘crush’ on Harry. He tries to hide his feelings, but then Harry’s looking at him with his deep green eyes or laughing his gorgeous laugh and Liam feels his façade crumble and forgets that he and Harry aren’t the only ones in the room.

Liam thinks about telling Harry about his crush on him, but every time he builds up the nerve to tell him he gets this feeling in the pit of his stomach, like if he opens his mouth he’ll be sick. Then his mind starts racing with thoughts of Harry laughing at his confession or smacking him saying he could never love someone like Liam, which makes Liam bury his head in his hands until Zayn or Niall come and find him, bringing him back to reality, back to pretending he’s not in love with one of his bandmates.

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Niall catches Liam staring at Harry at an interview the boys were having. Liam just brushes it off and comes up with some lame excuse, causing Niall to look at him oddly. Liam doesn’t like lying, but he figures it’s better than telling them the truth.

Liam tries not to stare at Harry for the rest of the interview, but as usual he fails, giving the younger boy his full attention.

Niall confronts Liam after the interview. Liam denies it, but he knows it’s a terrible attempt, causing Niall to have more questions that Liam cannot answer well at least not yet anyway.

  Niall gives up and gives Liam a comforting pat on the back murmuring if he needs to talk he’ll listen. Liam nods and gives him a small smile, before walking to his own dressing room.

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Liam ends up breaking at 3 in the morning after Harry brings home another drunken girl. He walks to Nialls room with tears in his eyes, knocking on the door. Niall opens it sleepily immediately waking up when he sees Liams tears. Liam tells Niall everything that night, about his crush on Harry and how much it kills him to see Harry with all those girls.

Niall holds him whispering sweet nothings into his hair until he falls into a restless sleep.

Liam wakes in the morning feeling a weight off of his shoulders, but then he walks out bumping into Harry and his companion for the night and feels like his heart is going to explode and he feels the tears form in his eyes, Liam mumbles a quick apology and walks to his room and shuts the door, sliding to the ground letting the tears that were threatening to fall, fall.

Liam isn’t sure how Harry can’t see how much he likes him or how much it hurts Liam when he brings home random girls, but then he remembers how slow Harry is and realises the only way Harry will know the feelings Liam has for him is for Liam to tell him.

Niall also tells him this after he finds Liam in his room sulking.

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Liam tells Niall first that he’s going to tell Harry how he feels. Niall looks at him blankly before he mutters “finally mate” and gives him a brief hug before telling Liam to move his arse and find Harry.

Liam finds Harry lying lazily on the couch with his iPhone in his large hands. Liam coughs letting Harry know he’s not the only one in the room anymore. Harry looks up from his phone and smiles widely at Liam before sitting up and telling Liam to join him.

Liam can feel his heart beating against his ribcage and his palms are clammy as he sits down next to Harry.  Harry starts talking, but Liam can’t hear anything apart from his heart beat and his head pounding.

“Li, are you okay?” Harry asks worriedly

Liam looks at Harry and sees the nervousness clear in his emerald eyes. Liam can feel his heart start to slow down to it’s normal pace and his head quieten down, so he begins to try and speak.

“Sorry, what were you saying?” He asks Harry

Harry laughs his deep laugh “I was asking if you were okay, you zoned out on me”

“I um yeah I’m fine. Listen Harry I need to tell you something” Liam says feeling a rush of confidence flow through his body.

“Sure what is it Li?”

“Harry let me get this out so don’t interrupt me or anything ok?” Liam says  as Harry nods agreeing.

“Ok, Harry I’m in love with you. I’m really sorry it just happened and I never meant to and I get that you don’t feel the same way I just I had to tell you it was killing me literally, plus Niall told me I better because you wouldn’t have ever worked it out on your own and I’m just so sorry Harry please don’t hate me” Liam finishes out of breath.

Harry sits there silently for a moment letting everything Liam had said sink in.

“Oh god I’m sorry Harry, I’ll just go” Liam says getting up, before Harry could stop him.

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Louis finds Harry sitting on the same couch where Liam had left him.

“He loves me” Harry blurts out, before jumping up and running towards Liam’s room leaving a rather confused Louis in his path.

Harry finds Liam with his hands tangled in his hair sitting on his bed. Harry kneels down in front of Liam taking his hands out from his silky smooth hair and lacing them together with his own large hands. Liam lifts his head to find Harrys mesmerising green eyes staring into his dark chocolate ones.

Harry leans up to Liam’s full pink lips pressing his own against Liams gently, but passionately letting all his emotions out into that one kiss.

They pull back breathless. Harry places his forehead against Liams before whispering 4 words Liam had been dying to hear since he had fallen head over heels for the curly haired lad.

“I love you too”.