Jealousy, Love, and Imperfection | Poetry One-Shots

Jealousy: The Green Disease

This bitter scene is an envious thing,

Always sprouting from my topaz orbs;

Haunting my very existing,

That feeling spiking my emotions like barbs.

I watch with innocent thoughts,

Spiraling out of control;

I know I'm within your oversights,

You're breaking the heart you stole.

This green disease fills me,

Consuming my inner side;

I felt myself wanting to flee,

Because of you, I lied.

It fills me,

It's viridescent tone evolves;

My temperature voices its degree,

My filter just dissolves.

My heart trumpets faster,

Faster than I can run;

The adrenaline becomes a boaster,

Leaving my emotions undone.

I try not to voice my opinion,

But it becomes an unhealthy task;

I wish for you to be more than a companion,

So I wait for you to ask.

"Will you be brave?" I ask myself,

To help my emerald fate;

Or will you sit back oneself,

And watch the game of hate.

Jealousy is such a silly thing,

But nothing can compare;

One thing for sure- its absorbing,

It causes one to care.

I was hoping you were different,

Nothing like the rest;

I guess I just wasn't torrent,

Just some sort of test.

Once again I'm broken to pieces,

A simple action that repeats;

The emotion just increases,

As my lonely heart beats.

I'm running away,

Away from winter's storm inside;

I feel as though I am stray,

And I am definitely terrified.

I watch you with her,

She's pretty and a spark;

Again I fear,

What do you see in this Shark?

She seems clingy,

I feel bad for you sometimes;

I know I shouldn't be stingy,

The worst- it hurts at times.

I hate it worst now,

As I see her attached to you,

I don't get it- How?

Sometimes I want to throw your head a shoe.

It's tough to concentrate,

My emotions cloud judgment;

The scenes illustrate,

It caused me to break- this silly attachment.

I watch my dancing eyes glistening,

It's not a pretty sight;

My skin is burning,

I face this hell-full delight.

Apparently I didn't trust you,

It was a lie;

I was afraid too,

Afraid of living- to die.

You never made sense,

There was always something new;

When you were close I would always tense,

My emotions were like a deadly tattoo.

My jealousy has blinded me,

For you caused my heart to break,

My mind feels like the banshee,

Screaming cause of this ache.

The green disease is deadly,

It roams this earth with pride;

If it finds an envious lonely,

It'll make them want to hide.

This envious feeling has absorbed my eyes,

Its taught me- be unaffected;

For it's better to be wise,

Then live life unprotected.

In the end it is only a silly disease,

Spreading to eyes who fall under the spell of attraction,

Leading girls and boys a stray- this silly disease,

But this pain can't compare to life- it's simply a distraction.

The end.