Rules Don't Matter

Chapter 11

Noel's P.O.V
September 6, 2018
1:54

   "Oh, I don't really wanna swim right now." I said.
"What you mean by that?" Daniel asked.
   "I'm just tired that's all." I said.
   "It'll be fun. We do more than diving contest and chicken fights." Zach said.
   "You guys do that. I'll probably binge watch something on Netflix." I said. I went up stairs.
   I went to Zach and I's room and went in the bathroom. I took off my shirt and looked at myself at the mirror. My marks I made around my legs and arms when I was 7 to 10 years old. Thankfully the boys hasn't notice them yet.
   That's why I don't like to swim all the time. Especially when a bunch of people were around The marks are still there. I was just distracted last time and the boys didn't seem to notice. It's quite visible. I avoid wearing swimsuits, crop tops, shorts and tang tops. But if I do wear a crop top I have to wear high waisted jeans to hide the marks. It's been quite hard.
   I was just looking at my body and I see Zach. Creeping through the door.
  "Z-ZACH!" I yelled. I shut the door and put my shirt back on. I went back outside.
  "What the fuck Zach. Are you some kind of pervert?!" I said.
  "I saw the marks. And no. I'm not a pervert." Zach said.
  "Tell no one Zach. There's reasons I don't do certain activities now." I said.
  "I won't. Promise. But H-How long were you cutting?" Zach asked.
   "YOU JUST DONT ASK A G- s-sorry." I said.
   "Since I was around 7." I continued.
   "W-Why." Zach said.
   "I'm so stupid. I shouldn't be asking you those questions." Zach said.
   "It's fine, I guess. But I'll just not tell you." I said.
   "Fine by me." Zach said.
   "If you want maybe we can go get Ice Cream or something." Zach added.
   "I'm fine, hang with the boys if you want." I said.
"Wait, weren't you swimming with us at the hotel?" Zach said.
"I wasn't thinking straight. You guys made me forgot about my past and marks. Thankfully you guys didn't see it earlier." I said.
"They were kinda covered. You were wearing a one piece that perfectly hid your marks." Zach said.
"It's because I only own one pieces that'll cover my marks." I said.
"ZACH HURRY UP WERE GONNA DO A CHICKEN FIGHT. YOU KIGHT END UP AS A REFEREE." Jack shouted.
"I think I'll watch you guys." I said.
"Oh you'll love it, WAIT FOR ME!" Zach shouted back. I followed him to the pool.
It was fun to se the boys have fun really. I would love to join but I'm too insecure about my body. It's just, no. Young me was too depressed to not think about her future and made random songs that pretty much never mattered.
Yea, there kinda good but they weren't dedicated to anyone. Or anything.
"Noel, you okay?" Zach pulled me out of my thoughts.
"I-I'm fine." I said.
"You sure?" Zach asked.
"Yeah." I said
"Okay, well wanna go inside." He asked.
"Sure." I said.
"Guys I'll be going now." Zach said.
"Okay then." The Boys reponded
Zach and I proceeded inside and Zach got showered and changed. I finally lasted in bed and rugged my face to a pillow.
"You good." Zach said.
"I gotta be honest. No." I lifted my head and drugged it back into the pillow.
"What's up?" Zach said.
"I'm just thinking about how perfect my family used to be and how we barely got into fights." I said.
"Then?"
"My dad one day was just really focussed in music once and my mom got all mad. She thought he was ignoring her or choosing music over family. Thanks when the big fight happen."
"What happened then?"
"My mom said for him to leave forever. Never see us again. Dad left. He never came back. When he decided to DM me the other day. I was honestly shook and confused. Now he DMs me like, why?"
"Ouch."
"I knew his side, I understand him. I know what's it like. I don't know how but I know my mom thought wrong."
   "What you mean by that?"
   "I might have eavesdrop on there fight right before dad left."
   "So?"
   "They fought and fought until my mom said something like leave forever never come back, take all of your stupid shit."
   "I'm sorry for you."
   "Don't be. It's not worth it. At least I'm with you guys."
   "I'm glad you trust us. You barely even met for a good week."
   "That's how much we all bonded."
   "Well I'm gonna head to the boys now."
   "Bye Zach."
   "Bye Noel."
   Zach left and closed the door. I shredded some little tears. I grabbed my laptop from my bag and watched some shows.
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