Heart Like Hell

Anxiety.

•Distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear or danger or misfortune.•

Just a note,i'm not gonna try and say that anxiety is as bad as depression,or Epidermolysis Bullosa,or being burnt alive because in that respect those are obviously far worse for someone to deal with.But for the sake off this and for the sake of those suffering with anxiety that's what i'm gonna be talking about today.

I'm always fuckin' scared to talk to people.I can't help but overthink every scenario and end up just giving up on it.Out of some kind of fear of possible rejection or being made fun of.I would go up to the front of the class to present some bullshit and my legs wouldn't stop shaking.In turn, i'd get made fun of for it.So not only does anxiety cause me stress inside,it is also the cause for certain outcomes that fuck my shit up too and then they end up stackin' on top of each other.

So in turn,after i get made fun of for my legs shaking i start tearing up at the eyes trying my best,to keep at least a fraction of self control and then i hear the roaring laughter of the classroom witnessing how fuckin' wierd and pathetic i am.

So then i start bawling my eyes out and my teachers never knew what to fuckin' do exept stare at at me in confusion,'cause i guess they were clueless as to what the fuck anxiety does to people.

So,yeah,it would just create a horrible situation in and of itself because it can.Like why can't i just be born with a normal brain and a normal body and a normal face?

I can't help but mindlessly envy others as the revel in their lives,full heartedly cakewalkin' through their days executing every action with ease while every walkin' moment for me is a potential opportunity for my brain to shut off forcing me to not know what the fuck to do or say.

-MamaMax