" I'm not the man you think I am......" ( kiribaku/bakushima)

ch.1:...where this hell started...

(a/n) okay! so I wanted to write this because of all the angsty kirishima books ive been reading and I felt really inspired too. en

~author-chan

kirishima's POV

I just stood there frozen in place as my fellow classmate was being beaten up by a bully and all I could do is watch, shaking in fear to act up.

why cant I move

why am I not doing anything.......

JUST DO SOMETHING DAMMIT!!!!

I clenched my fist, try to fight the urge to stay still, when a girl jumped in front of my and confronted the bully. "hey! what the hell do you think your doing!" she yelled, sprinting toward him and knocking him to the ground with a punch. the kid that was getting beat up looked at her and thanked her, she smiled at him before returning her attention to the fight. the guy jumped up in full on rage toward the girl, and in a swift move was back on the ground.

he wailing from pain when a goopy substance fell onto him from the girls quirk, than he ran off. that's when I realized who this girl was, her name is mina ashido and she's the center of attention around here. everyone loves her and her amazing quirk, she's a shining star that blinds everyone around her, even me. no doubt about it, she'll become an amazing pro hero one day.

I watched the kid repeatedly thank ashido for saving him, I looked down at the ground and clenched my fist tighter, fighting back the tears that threatened to spill from my eyes.

"me become a pro hero, what a joke. I couldn't even save a kid from a school bully, im so useless-"

"hey anyone home!" I felt someone knock on my forehead, causing me to snap back to reality. I looked up to see mina smiling at me, I stepped back and stared at her. "geez im not gonna hurt you." she said and extended her arm at me," im mina ashido! your eijiro kirishima, right? we're in the same class" I looked at her in disbelief, she actually knew who I am. I hesitantly grabbed her hand to shake, she shook my hand rapidly with a smile than let go.

"y-yeah im eijiro kirishima. a-and you were awesome back there, w-with your quirk and all" I said nervously. mina tilted her head a bit, "thanks but why are you so nervous? im not gonna hurt you and im not that scary, ya know." she said, resting her hands on her hips.
I nodded slightly "I-I know you wont, im just not used to people talking to me s'all" I mumbled with slight stutter, rubbing the back of my neck with my gaze on the floor. mina seemed to ooze energy like a ball of sunshine, i wish i could be like that, a ray of light for others to see and smile at.

heh like that'll ever happen

(Timeskip brought to you by, mirio togata!)

I looked down at my phone, specifically a newly added contact to the very few that I have. For some reason, mina wanted to exchange numbers with me cause we were friends now? Wow that was quick, but boy was it suprising. A girl with so much popularity actually wants to be my friend?! That's a shocker right there. A little grin made it's way onto my face, I honestly was really happy about making my first friend.

But that happiness faded really quick when I heard a familiar voice call me with a nickname that sent uncomfortable shivers down my spine "eiji!~"
I turned around slowly to meet golden yellow eyes, ones that make me wanna die from just one look. "H-hey Naegi, w-w-whats up?" I stuttered out, beyond anxious and afraid. "Nothin much, just came by to see my lovely girlfriend~ did you miss me baby?~" naegi cooed as he wrapped an arm around my waist, his hand was way too close to my butt.

"I-im not your girlfriend naegi, I'm a boy first of all a-and second I'm not a replacement for your last girlfriend" i tried to act confident in Hope's that he would finally back off. Naegi used to have a girlfriend with shoulder length black hair like mine, that's why I'm his main target. He uses me as his girlfriends stand in, so he sexually harasses me often and of course, my coward self doesnt do anything about it...

Till today, my words seemed to tick him off as his bangs created a shadow over his eyes. I trembled in fear, I really messed up now. Naegi grabbed my wrist tightly and roughly pulled me into deep into a shadowy area of an alleyway. He stopped suddenly and roughly pushed me against the stone wall, I groaned at the subtle pain before yelping quietly as Naegi pinned me to the wall with my back facing him.

He practically towered over me from being almost 4 inches taller than me but he was in highschool so that was a given. "You shouldn't talk like that to your daddy, eiji~ you deserve a punishment~" he growled lowly into my ear before biting the shell of my ear as his hands started to roam my body.

I struggled against his weight in the attempt to get away but he slipped his knee Inbetween my legs and lightly pressed up to trap me. My breath hitched as he did so, naegi only chuckled darkly "its punishment time, baby~" he declared sadistically. Before I knew it my hands were tied behind my back along with a bandana tied around my mouth as a gag, right before I was thrown to the ground. I let out a muffled grunt when I hit the floor chest down, than I felt to hands grip my hips and pull my butt up into the air. My eyes widened as I felt my pants and boxers get pulled down to my knees, leaving my ass totally exposed. The horror of the situation Was finally settling in, I was about to be raped.....

I started thrashing around to make an attempt to get him off me, but all I got was a hard slap on the head "stop it!" Naegi growled as he grabbed my head and pushed me against the hard cement floor before thrusting right into me. I let out a painful cry as the tears that were threatening to spill before streamed down my cheeks, it felt like my insides were being ripped apart and rearranged.
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My body feels disgusting, I feel disgusting. I was laying curled up on the alleyway floor, covered in sweat, cum and dirt as I sobbed.
Why didnt I didnt I fight back more
Why am I such a coward
I'm so gross
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Maybe I should just die...

(A/N) i actually managed to finish this chapter on the same day, middle school kirishima's first appearance on the anime "let's go, gutsy Red Riot"