8/16/14
Dear Michael,
Sorry I haven't written in forever. It's just a lot of things have happened in my life and I needed time to figure things out. I still am actually. I have more questions than answers.
Most of them end up leading back to you.
How could someone that barely even knows me have invaded my thought as much as he did?
How come no matter how hard I try I can't seem to fall out of love with you?
Why would I want to fall out of love with you?
Why would I even think there was a chance you would love me back?
But I still do. I still live on that little slim of hope that you'll respond to me. That you'll tell me you love me as much as I do you. That you think about me. That no matter what you do you can't seem to get me out of your head. Because that's how I feel with you.
So yeah, my life is slowly falling apart and I will slowly fade away, but for now you are keeping me together, you are coloring me back in. Although someday that won't be enough. Especially that I know you don't care about me like I do you. But I wish I did.
I just really miss being a kid you know. When you could do whatever you wanted and not having to worry about being judged. When your worst thing in life was what color crayon you picked and if you colored inside the lines or not.
My life is starting to get colored outside the edges.
I miss you. I miss you so much.
I love you. Never forget that.
Yours Truly,
K
