I hate myself
I hate the way my legs sway when I walk, the way my small hands bundle into fists due to my self-consciousness.
The way I smile, and how my eyes turn into little slits.
I hate my body, I'm so fat
But I hate myself most when I'm happy, that Jimin is despicable
Having millions of fans does something to you, it slowly breaks you down in such a way you feel like a monkey in a cage while people scream "Dance"
Hasn't anyone noticed how tired I am? I guess I'm just that great of an actor.
Dancing
And dancing
And dancing
Until I no longer can, and the crowd leaves my dead body behind them, moving on to the next act.
How did Jungkook do it? His smile wasn't artificial like the rest of us, his dancing was filled with true passion. We were trapped in the cage, he locked himself in and danced as if saying, "Everyone look at me."
I looked at him with awe, he was the real deal. He was the idol that I dreamed of being as a child. Passion seems silly somehow now, when did I enjoy singing again?
'Love Yourself' Ha, I wish I could
How could I ever? My whole life is a lie
An endless pit of self-hate that never seems to end. "Jimin, he's so cute!" have you seen me without makeup? "Jimin is like, so adorable." If you knew half the thing in my brain you would run away.
And the worst part of me?
I'm in love with my best friend.
Jungkook is the only one I trust
and I lie to him too...
YOU ARE READING
My Lies, Park Jimin's diary
Mystery / ThrillerEveryone Loves Jimin, most likely you included. So what would you do if you found his diary? What if he was nothing like you thought he was? What if he was in love with a fellow band member? I'll spill the tea and more sis, just sit back and snoop i...
