Every day I wake up really early so I can be excepted not only by other people but by myself. I always dress really nice and in cute clothes, get good grades, and starve myself everyday so I can look like the other girls.
It gets worse when I am On my period. Yes I know there is birth control. But I react negatively to it. No one seems to care that I am depressed or feel suicidal. But I keep going no matter what. Yeah I had a few close friends but they didn't know how to help me.
After a few months of this it is finally summer vacation. I get a break from everything was my first thought. But that means nothing because I still have to work. So I get ready for work one day. That same day is when I meet him. He is my boyfriend now. Yeah it was a summer love that lasted way to long.
I work at a fast food place in the mall. One day he came in with his friends and asked for my number. So I gave it to him. We will call him James. After that he texted me all the time. He started to flirt with me but I wasn't really interested in him. Until I realized that he was super popular, and that if I dated him I should become popular. I just need to impress him so we can be boyfriend and girlfriend.
One night my plan feel into place with one simple text.
