the guys

cold pt. 1 | pre-camping and camping

so, i was liking some guy.

he is my senior in my senior high school. he is two years older than me. and the most important thing is; he didn't know me.

we never talk. we never been contacted. i'm never asking him for everything, so he give me no feedback.

we don't even just staring each other. like, you know. gazing each other. we never do that even though we are in the same school.

the first time i like him; i don't even know his name. can we just say that it is clearly love at the first sight?

so i like him when my school make some even like pra camping or something. we are doing it before we do camping.

it's basically just about the lesson of what we gonna do when we are camping later.

like; the pra camping was the theory, and the camping itself was a practice.

by the way, before all, let's we call that guy as Jisung because i see some similiar thing from him and NCT Jisung.

Jisung is one of the senior who gonna organize and accompany us as long as we do camping.

i started liking him from the first day of pra camping. anyway, pra camping is being held for two days, and the camping is being held for two days and one night.

i actually don't know why i like him. love is there without any reason, right?

i just found him seems so cute and interesting. something that i didn't felt with another boy.

he is tall. his body is warm. and adorable, at least for me.

how could i know that his body is warm but actually the case is i never ever touched him? another senior tell me. and i feel greatfull.

his body is warm, and i hate cold so much. i think we are gonna be matching, aren't we?

i found out that everybody has no interest with him. 'cause whenever i tell them that i like him, their are just like 'really?' that kinda thing.

and i'm just like 'yes, i really do liking him.' so my friend was making a joke from it all the time.

it's just a kidding i understand you guys can sit calmly.

and by the way, i know he has a different religion with me.

because when the camping was held, we are going post to post and some senior will asked us some question.

and there are religion post. there are just two religion posts, which is for moslems and christians.

i see him on the christian post and since that moment i know that i can't hoping for something more from him.

i actually shouldn't hope for anything from him from the start.

the first is i don't know who is his name, the second thing is he is not knowing me, the third thing is we never been contacted at all, and the fourth thing is we have a different religion.

what's again next?

and after it, after doing post to post thing and everything i need to do during this camping, finally we are going back home.

and the best thing right now was i still don't know about his name yet. (:

until we are going back, on the way, some senior who is in the same car as me was try to know who is the guy that i was get interested.

i said like 'no, i don't know his name.' and they seems like they're not believing me.

god. i know that i always lying all the time but right know, i was extremely saying the truth!

after all, my senior finally trust me and start search the senior that i like from their groupchat based on the profile picture.

and fINALLY! we found it. i found it. i found out his name.

but sadly, i foget his name when i arrive at my home.

and then, around two days later, i'm going to the canteen and find Jisung.

the chair beside him is empty. i was so exciting to seat beside him. and also felt nervous.

i'm already seating beside him while waiting for my friend who was buying some food.

i even taking a picture of me and his hair lmao.

until my other friend telling me to go to the classroom as soon as possible because she have a very important news.

i'm a little bit confused. because when i ask her to tell that news via chatting, she's just push me more to go to the classroom asap.

and when the food is finally come, i go to the classroom that fast.

rain is come and my friend telling me a news that he, Jisung, is dating with a senior.

the hurtest part thing is, that senior that was dating with Jisung is a girl that seat in Jisung's another side on the canteen.