Decisions

Being Happy

My problem is when I love,  I tend to love too hard, and when I get close to someone I get too close,  And when I feel like I'm losing them I freak,  bc I never open up to anyone so every once in a while when I do fall in love that's one person that I can't let go no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much it kills and destroys me. Yet you want nothing more than too make them the happiest they have ever been, and when you can't, and you see them struggling,  and it makes you want to kill your self bc you couldn't handle the heart break bc you failed them, yet you see a way they can be perfectly happy and stay happy,  everything in you explodes bc you wanted to do that for them but if someone or something else can do that for them, all I've ever wanted for her is her happiness and if this is the only way she can be, I have to think about her not me, even though it hurts I want nothing more but the best for her! I will always love her and always be here for her no matter what! I just hope she knows that.